s we had sinned together, now we were
likely to sink together.
All this repeated itself to my thoughts at that very moment, and every
one of Amy's cries sounded thus in my ears: "I am the wicked cause of it
all! I have been thy ruin, Amy! I have brought thee to this, and now
thou art to suffer for the sin I have enticed thee to! And if thou art
lost for ever, what must I be? what must be my portion?"
It is true this difference was between us, that I said all these things
within myself, and sighed and mourned inwardly; but Amy, as her temper
was more violent, spoke aloud, and cried, and called out aloud, like one
in agony.
I had but small encouragement to give her, and indeed could say but very
little, but I got her to compose herself a little, and not let any of
the people of the ship understand what she meant or what she said; but
even in her greatest composure she continued to express herself with the
utmost dread and terror on account of the wicked life she had lived,
crying out she should be damned, and the like, which was very terrible
to me, who knew what condition I was in myself.
Upon these serious considerations, I was very penitent too for my former
sins, and cried out, though softly, two or three times, "Lord, have
mercy upon me!" To this I added abundance of resolutions of what a life
I would live if it should please God but to spare my life but this one
time; how I would live a single and a virtuous life, and spend a great
deal of what I had thus wickedly got in acts of charity and doing good.
Under these dreadful apprehensions I looked back on the life I had led
with the utmost contempt and abhorrence. I blushed, and wondered at
myself how I could act thus, how I could divest myself of modesty and
honour, and prostitute myself for gain; and I thought, if ever it should
please God to spare me this one time from death, it would not be
possible that I should be the same creature again.
Amy went farther; she prayed, she resolved, she vowed to lead a new
life, if God would spare her but this time. It now began to be daylight,
for the storm held all night long, and it was some comfort to see the
light of another day, which none of us expected; but the sea went
mountains high, and the noise of the water was as frightful to us as the
sight of the waves; nor was any land to be seen, nor did the seamen know
whereabout they were. At last, to our great joy, they made land, which
was in England, and on the
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