above 2130 crowns; so I
pulled out some bills which I had upon a merchant in Amsterdam, and a
particular account in bank, and was looking on them in order to give
them to him; when he, seeing evidently what I was going about,
interrupted me with some warmth, and told me he would have nothing of me
on that account, and desired I would not pull out my bills and papers on
that score; that he had not told me the story on that account, or with
any such view; that it had been his misfortune first to bring that ugly
rogue to me, which, though it was with a good design, yet he would
punish himself with the expense he had been at for his being so unlucky
to me; that I could not think so hard of him as to suppose he would take
money of me, a widow, for serving me, and doing acts of kindness to me
in a strange country, and in distress too; but he said he would repeat
what he had said before, that he kept me for a deeper reckoning, and
that, as he had told me, he would put me into a posture to even all that
favour, as I called it, at once, so we should talk it over another time,
and balance all together.

Now I expected it would come out, but still he put it off, as before,
from whence I concluded it could not be matter of love, for that those
things are not usually delayed in such a manner, and therefore it must
be matter of money. Upon which thought I broke the silence, and told
him, that as he knew I had, by obligation, more kindness for him than to
deny any favour to him that I could grant, and that he seemed backward
to mention his case, I begged leave of him to give me leave to ask him
whether anything lay upon his mind with respect to his business and
effects in the world; that if it did, he knew what I had in the world as
well as I did, and that, if he wanted money, I would let him have any
sum for his occasion, as far as five or six thousand pistoles, and he
should pay me as his own affairs would permit; and that, if he never
paid me, I would assure him that I would never give him any trouble for
it.

He rose up with ceremony, and gave me thanks in terms that sufficiently
told me he had been bred among people more polite and more courteous
than is esteemed the ordinary usage of the Dutch; and after his
compliment was over he came nearer to me, and told me he was obliged to
assure me, though with repeated acknowledgments of my kind offer, that
he was not in any want of money; that he had met with no uneasiness in
any of