a certain charm. There is a species of
voluptuousness in this appetite for suffering, and the sufferer becomes,
as it were, enamored of his own agony.
With Zilah, this sad state was due to a sort of insurrection of his
loyalty against the many infamies to be met with in this world, which he
had believed to be only too full of virtues.
He now considered himself an idiot, a fool, for having all his life
adored chimeras, and followed, as children do passing music, the fanfares
of poetic chivalry. Yes, faith, enthusiasm, love, were so many cheats, so
many lies. All beings who, like himself, were worshippers of the ideal,
all dreamers of better things, all lovers of love, were inevitably doomed
to deception, treason, and the stupid ironies of fate. And, full of anger
against himself, his pessimism of to-day sneering at his confidence of
yesterday, he abandoned himself with delight to his bitterness, and he
took keen joy in repeating to himself that the secret of happiness in
this life was to believe in nothing except treachery, and to defend
oneself against men as against wolves.
Very rarely, his real frank, true nature would come to the fore, and he
would say:
"After all, are the cowardice of one man, and the lie of one woman, to be
considered the crime of entire humanity?"
Why should he curse, he would think, other beings than Marsa and Menko?
He had no right to hate any one else; he had no enemy that he knew of,
and he was honored in Paris, his new country.
No enemy? No, not one. And yet, one morning, with his letters, his valet
brought him a journal addressed to "Prince Zilah," and, on unfolding it,
Andras's attention was attracted to two paragraphs in the column headed
"Echoes of Paris," which were marked with a red-lead pencil.
It was a number of 'L'Actualite', sent through the post by an unknown
hand, and the red marks were evidently intended to point out to the
Prince something of interest to himself.
Andras received few journals. A sudden desire seized him, as if he had a
presentiment of what it contained, to cast this one into the fire without
reading it. For a moment he held it in his fingers ready to throw it into
the grate. Then a few words read by accident invincibly prevented him.
He read, at first with poignant sorrow, and then with a dull rage, the
two paragraphs, one of which followed the other in the paper.
"A sad piece of news has come to our ears," ran the first paragraph, "a
piece
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