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en she had locked the door, she stood a moment upright with the letter in her hand,--the blotted incoherent scrawl, where Langham had for once forgotten to be literary, where every pitiable half-finished sentence pleaded with her,--even in the first smart of her wrong--for pardon, for compassion, as toward something maimed and paralyzed from birth, unworthy even of her contempt. Then the tears began to rain over her cheeks. 'I was not good enough,--I was not good enough--God would not let me!' And she fell on her knees beside the bed, the little bit of paper crushed in her hands against her lips. Not good enough for what! _To save_? How lightly she had dreamed of healing, redeeming, changing! And the task is refused her. It is not so much the cry of personal desire that shakes her as she kneels and weeps,--nor is it mere wounded woman's pride. It is a strange stern sense of law. Had she been other than she is--more loving, less self-absorbed, loftier in motive--he could not have loved her so, have left her so. Deep undeveloped forces of character stir within her. She feels herself judged,--and with a righteous judgement-issuing inexorably from the facts of life and circumstance. Meanwhile Catherine was shut up downstairs with Robert who had come over early to see how the household fared. Robert listened to the whole luckless story with astonishment and dismay. This particular possibility of mischief had gone out of his mind for some time. He had been busy in his East End work. Catherine had been silent. Over how many matters they would once have discussed with open heart was she silent now? 'I ought to have been warned,' he said, with quick decision--'if you knew this was going on. I am the only man, among you, and I understand Langham better than the rest of you. I might have looked after the poor child a little.' Catherine accepted the reproach mutely as one little smart the more. However, what had she known? She had seen nothing unusual of late, nothing to make her think a crisis was approaching. Nay, she had flattered herself that Mr. Flaxman, whom she liked, was gaining ground. Meanwhile Robert stood pondering anxiously what could be done. Could anything be done? 'I must go and see him,' he said presently. 'Yes, dearest, I must. Impossible the thing should be left so! I am his old friend,--almost her guardian. You say she is in great trouble--why it may shadow her whole life! No--he must expl
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