FREE BOOKS

Author's List




PREV.   NEXT  
|<   365   366   367   368   369   370   371   372   373   374   375   376   377   378   379   380   381   382   383   384   385   386   387   388   389  
390   391   392   393   394   395   396   397   398   399   400   401   402   403   404   405   406   407   408   409   410   411   412   413   414   >>   >|  
oor and went into the elder's cell where his coffin was now standing. There was no one in the cell but Father Paissy, reading the Gospel in solitude over the coffin, and the young novice Porfiry, who, exhausted by the previous night's conversation and the disturbing incidents of the day, was sleeping the deep sound sleep of youth on the floor of the other room. Though Father Paissy heard Alyosha come in, he did not even look in his direction. Alyosha turned to the right from the door to the corner, fell on his knees and began to pray. His soul was overflowing but with mingled feelings; no single sensation stood out distinctly; on the contrary, one drove out another in a slow, continual rotation. But there was a sweetness in his heart and, strange to say, Alyosha was not surprised at it. Again he saw that coffin before him, the hidden dead figure so precious to him, but the weeping and poignant grief of the morning was no longer aching in his soul. As soon as he came in, he fell down before the coffin as before a holy shrine, but joy, joy was glowing in his mind and in his heart. The one window of the cell was open, the air was fresh and cool. "So the smell must have become stronger, if they opened the window," thought Alyosha. But even this thought of the smell of corruption, which had seemed to him so awful and humiliating a few hours before, no longer made him feel miserable or indignant. He began quietly praying, but he soon felt that he was praying almost mechanically. Fragments of thought floated through his soul, flashed like stars and went out again at once, to be succeeded by others. But yet there was reigning in his soul a sense of the wholeness of things--something steadfast and comforting--and he was aware of it himself. Sometimes he began praying ardently, he longed to pour out his thankfulness and love.... But when he had begun to pray, he passed suddenly to something else, and sank into thought, forgetting both the prayer and what had interrupted it. He began listening to what Father Paissy was reading, but worn out with exhaustion he gradually began to doze. "_And the third day there was a marriage in Cana of Galilee;_" read Father Paissy. "_And the mother of Jesus was there; And both Jesus was called, and his disciples, to the marriage._" "Marriage? What's that?... A marriage!" floated whirling through Alyosha's mind. "There is happiness for her, too.... She has gone to the feast.... No, she has n
PREV.   NEXT  
|<   365   366   367   368   369   370   371   372   373   374   375   376   377   378   379   380   381   382   383   384   385   386   387   388   389  
390   391   392   393   394   395   396   397   398   399   400   401   402   403   404   405   406   407   408   409   410   411   412   413   414   >>   >|  



Top keywords:

Alyosha

 
Paissy
 
Father
 

thought

 
coffin
 
praying
 

marriage

 

window

 

floated

 

longer


reading

 

reigning

 
succeeded
 

things

 
Sometimes
 

ardently

 

longed

 
standing
 

steadfast

 

comforting


wholeness

 

miserable

 

indignant

 

humiliating

 

solitude

 
quietly
 

flashed

 

thankfulness

 
Fragments
 

mechanically


Gospel

 

whirling

 

happiness

 

Marriage

 
mother
 

called

 

disciples

 

Galilee

 

forgetting

 
prayer

suddenly
 
passed
 

interrupted

 

gradually

 

listening

 

exhaustion

 

continual

 

rotation

 
distinctly
 

contrary