d yourself to love me!

Who has suddenly turned our love into a crime? Beloved, is it a sin that
here on earth I have been seeing God through you? Go away from me, and He
is gone also. Ah, sweetheart, let me see you before all my world turns
into a wilderness! Let me know better why,--if my senses are to be emptied
of you. My heart can never let you go. Do you wish that it should?

Bring your own here, and see if it can tell me that! Come and listen to
mine! Oh, dearest heart that ever beat, mine beats so like yours that
once together you shall not divide their sound!

Beloved, I will be patient, believe me, to any words you can say: but I
cannot be patient away from you. If I have seemed to reproach you, do
not think that now. For you are to give me a greater joy than I ever had
before when you take me in your arms again after a week that has spelled
dreadful separation. And I shall bless you for it--for this present pain
even--because the joy will be so much greater.

Only come: I do not live till you have kissed me again. Oh, my beloved,
how cruel love may seem if we do not trust it enough! My trust in you has
come back in a great rush of warmth, like a spring day after frost. I
almost laugh as I let this go. It brings you,--perhaps before I wake: I
shall be so tired to-night. Call under my window, make me hear in my
sleep. I will wake up to you, and it shall be all over before the rest of
the world wakes. There is no dream so deep that I shall not hear you out
of the midst of it. Come and be my morning-glory to-morrow without fail. I
will rewrite nothing that I have written--let it go! See me out of deep
waters again, because I have thought so much of you! I have come through
clouds and thick darkness. I press your name to my lips a thousand times.
As sure as sunrise I say to myself that you will come: the sun is not
truer to his rising than you to me.

Love will go flying after this till I sleep. God bless you!--and me also;
it is all one and the same wish.--Your most true, loving, and dear
faithful one.

LETTER LIX.

I have to own that I know your will now, at last. Without seeing you I am
convinced: you have a strong power in you to have done that! You have told
me the word I am to say to you: it is your bidding, so I say it--Good-by.
But it is a word whose meaning I cannot share.

Yet I have something to tell you which I could not have dreamed if it
had not somehow been true: which has made it po