oo much of her, than lest you should forget her.'
'She was right.'
'But I fear your anxiety is quite the other way respecting her.'
'No, it is not: I wish her to be happy; but I don't wish her to forget me
altogether. She knows it is impossible that I should forget her; and she
is right to wish me not to remember her too well. I should not desire
her to regret me too deeply; but I can scarcely imagine she will make
herself very unhappy about me, because I know I am not worthy of it,
except in my appreciation of her.'
'You are neither of you worthy of a broken heart,--nor of all the sighs,
and tears, and sorrowful thoughts that have been, and I fear will be,
wasted upon you both; but, at present, each has a more exalted opinion of
the other than, I fear, he or she deserves; and my sister's feelings are
naturally full as keen as yours, and I believe more constant; but she has
the good sense and fortitude to strive against them in this particular;
and I trust she will not rest till she has entirely weaned her
thoughts--' he hesitated.
'From me,' said I.
'And I wish you would make the like exertions,' continued he.
'Did she tell you that that was her intention?'
'No; the question was not broached between us: there was no necessity for
it, for I had no doubt that such was her determination.'
'To forget me?'
'Yes, Markham! Why not?'
'Oh, well!' was my only audible reply; but I internally answered,--'No,
Lawrence, you're wrong there: she is not determined to forget me. It
would be wrong to forget one so deeply and fondly devoted to her, who can
so thoroughly appreciate her excellencies, and sympathise with all her
thoughts, as I can do, and it would be wrong in me to forget so excellent
and divine a piece of God's creation as she, when I have once so truly
loved and known her.' But I said no more to him on that subject. I
instantly started a new topic of conversation, and soon took leave of my
companion, with a feeling of less cordiality towards him than usual.
Perhaps I had no right to be annoyed at him, but I was so nevertheless.
In little more than a week after this I met him returning from a visit to
the Wilsons'; and I now resolved to do him a good turn, though at the
expense of his feelings, and perhaps at the risk of incurring that
displeasure which is so commonly the reward of those who give
disagreeable information, or tender their advice unasked. In this,
believe me, I was actuated by
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