I have breath,
And on my quivering lips in death.
Angels and fellow-sinners, say,
Will you not join me in this lay,
Now, and through heaven's eternal day?
"Blessed Comforter, thou seest old age upon me, loss of memory,
and a desultory mind; I cannot retain even the substance of my dear
pastor's sermons. I thank thee for the food and refreshment at the
time, and often after for refreshing meditations on the same subjects.
I commit all to thee; keep them for me, and feed me with these truths
as thou seest I need. O be to me memory, judgment, presence of mind,
for order, regularity, and natural powers are gone. I rejoice in my
dear Saviour, who of God is made unto me wisdom, righteousness,
sanctification, and redemption. He shall perfect that which concerneth
me, and finish the work he has begun. Therefore I say, All is well."
"COMMUNION SABBATH, May 17, 1812.
"Was much melted under a sense of indwelling sin, and the
deceitfulness of the human heart, and of my own heart in particular. I
have been. I think, much in the exercise of contrition for the sins of
my past life, and exercised in watching over my words, thoughts, and
actions; now that the Lord has delivered me from all necessity to
care, having every thing provided for me _necessary to life and
godliness:_ pleasant food and clothing both for body and mind; my
dear room, retirement, fire, candle, attendance; my precious Bible,
and precious, lively, spiritual ordinances; a faithful and beloved
pastor, who feeds me with truth: I taste it, and I am fed. I am, as
the Lord God merciful and gracious has awarded, under the constant
influence of shame and confusion for my highly aggravated
transgressions: but I also enjoy the full sense of pardon; being
justified by faith, I have peace with God through our Lord Jesus
Christ; and knowing that I have a 'great high-priest that is passed
into, the heavens, Jesus the Son of God,' I am enabled to hold fast my
profession, comforted by this, that I have not a high-priest who
cannot be touched with the feeling of my infirmities, but was in all
points tempted as we are, yet without sin. I dare come, not very
boldly, for I am under much depression, to the throne of grace, that I
may obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need. Every time is
a time of need with me, for sin still dwelleth in me. I have peace
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