ill of measles, 131;
desire to say something _from_ myself, 131;
ghosts, 132;
convalescence, 132;
considering a means of livelihood, 135;
about marrying, 136;
going on the stage, 137;
projected works, 138;
_first ball_, 140;
admiration for Mrs. Henry Siddons, 143;
love for Edinburgh, 145;
a touching incident, 147;
a Scotch Venus, 149;
raspberry tarts, 152;
sitting to Lawrence Macdonald for bust, 152;
"Grecian Daughters," 152;
an old-fashioned house, 156;
a partisan of Charles Edward, 156;
an unlucky speech, 156;
great esteem for Dr. Combe, 155;
intimacy with Harry Siddons, 157;
incident of Scottish regalia, 157;
at Mr. Combe's house, 158;
listens to Chambers Brothers' story of poverty, 161;
a jolly face for a tragic actress, 162;
Mons Meg and Madame Catalani, 162;
observance of Sunday, 163;
a natural _turn_ for religion, 164;
give up Byron's poetry, 165;
a new tragedy, "Fiesco," 168;
return to London, 168;
religious zeal, 170;
singing with Moore, 173;
begins a visit to England in 1841, 175;
meeting Sir Samuel Cunard, 176;
through London in 1845, on way to Italy, 176;
renewal of intercourse with Mrs. Norton, 177;
talks about the Hindoo Theatre, 178;
plans for helping my father, 179;
goes to Scotland, 180;
destroying H.'s letters, 181;
German abandoned, 181;
a few words about Shakespeare, 182;
admiration for young Tennyson's poems, 184;
the theatre to be sold, 186;
life rather sad, 186;
"brought out" as _Juliet_, 188;
a badly dressed _Juliet_, 189;
preparations for first appearance, 189;
my opinion of _Portia_, 187
preparing for a _debut_, 191;
a constant admirer, 197;
awkward incident with Mr. Abbot, 199;
"Jove, Fanny, you are a lift!" 200;
interest in Malibran, 203;
acting as _Mrs. Beverley_ in "The Gamester" in Manchester, 204;
a strange scene between my father and Madame Malibran, 204
a little advice from Malibran, 204;
resemblance to Madame Malibran, 205;
translate De Musset's lament for Malibran, 206;
restore the ending to "Romeo and Juliet," 207;
danger of falling in love with Lawrence, 209;
sitting for portrait to Lawrence, 209;
a sudden glimpse of Satan, 214;
first copy of "Paradise Lost," 215;
a deplorable act of honesty, 217;
preparing for _debut_, 218;
ideas of beauty, 218;
_debut_ in "Romeo and Juliet," 220;
first watch, 221;
impression