rs his eyes," I recalled my brother
telling me, "he is entering the perfect awareness of Nirvakalpa
Samadhi." I looked up. Chinmoy smiled, flickered his eyes, and pulled
from the box... nothing! He had run out of oranges.
"An omen!" I thought. I was unsure, though, what the delay exactly
meant. Nonetheless, I decided to take advantage of the situation. I
focused my gaze on Chinmoy. Soon everything in the chapel, except for
his shiny face, seemed to disappear. Then, borrowing a technique from
the Castaneda books, I squinted and crossed my eyes until Chinmoy
transformed into swirls of shimmering light. "Wow!" I thought. For a
moment, the distorted image before me reminded me of the Transcendental.
When Chinmoy came back into focus, he shot a glance at the side of the
chapel. A disciple brought him a fresh crate. After the second
flickering, I took the orange with both hands, touched it to my heart
chakra, and bowed. I walked away feeling grateful. A wave of joy
washed over me. I saw the disciples, including my brother and
Atmananda, gazing lovingly at Chinmoy. I felt touched by a power which
seemed greater and more romantic than that of the world of reason.
"How many people get a gift from a *fully* enlightened guru?" I
wondered.
"Don't just stare at it," my brother reproved, explaining that oranges
were poor retainers of Spiritual Light. "Eat it!"
Moments later, the Guru announced in a lilting voice, "Atmananda,
pleeeez bring."
Atmananda led the five or six potential initiates to the front of the
chapel. He had found, inspired, and persuaded them through his
lectures. While Atmananda watched the Guru initiate them, he did not
return to his seat. Instead, he remained in front, several feet away.
Chinmoy rapidly oscillated his eyes at the new recruits. His eyes were
still flickering when he placed his hand on each of their foreheads.
When his eyes returned to normal, he flashed a smile at Atmananda, at
the new disciples, and at the rest of the audience. Then he left the
chapel in a flurry of whites and saris.
As I watched him leave, I felt secure that he and Atmananda knew a lot
about the unknown. I glanced across the room at the disciples. I
realized that I wanted to be part of their fellowship.
My brother and I found Atmananda outside, addressing a group of Stony
Brook Chinmoy disciples.
"Do you want to go with us to Au Natural?" he asked us.
At that moment I would have gone
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