Amy too, for I did not yet despair of
my hearing from her; and that if my good Quaker should ever see her
again, she should let her see them; wherein, particularly, ordering her
to leave the affair of Spitalfields just as I had done, in the hands of
my friend, she should come away to me; upon this condition,
nevertheless, that she gave full satisfaction to my friend the Quaker
that she had not murdered my child; for if she had, I told her I would
never see her face more. However, notwithstanding this, she came over
afterwards, without giving my friend any of that satisfaction, or any
account that she intended to come over.

I can say no more now, but that, as above, being arrived in Holland,
with my spouse and his son, formerly mentioned, I appeared there with
all the splendour and equipage suitable to our new prospect, as I have
already observed.

Here, after some few years of flourishing and outwardly happy
circumstances, I fell into a dreadful course of calamities, and Amy
also; the very reverse of our former good days. The blast of Heaven
seemed to follow the injury done the poor girl by us both, and I was
brought so low again, that my repentance seemed to be only the
consequence of my misery, as my misery was of my crime.

CONTINUATION

(_From the 1745 Edition_)

In resolving to go to Holland with my husband, and take possession of
the title of countess as soon as possible, I had a view of deceiving my
daughter, were she yet alive, and seeking me out; for it seldom happens
that a nobleman, or his lady, are called by their surnames, and as she
was a stranger to our noble title, might have inquired at our next door
neighbours for Mr. ----, the Dutch merchant, and not have been one jot
the wiser for her inquiry. So one evening, soon after this resolution,
as I and my husband were sitting together when supper was over, and
talking of several various scenes in life, I told him that, as there was
no likelihood of my being with child, as I had some reason to suspect I
was some time before, I was ready to go with him to any part of the
world, whenever he pleased. I said, that great part of my things were
packed up, and what was not would not be long about, and that I had
little occasion to buy any more clothes, linen, or jewels, whilst I was
in England, having a large quantity of the richest and best of
everything by me already. On saying these words, he took me in his
arms, and told me that he looked on what