from the presence of his sovereign.
But, O Belford! had she had but the least patience with me--had she but
made me think she would forgive this initiatory ardour--surely she will
not be always thus guarded.--
I had not been a moment by myself, but I was sensible that I had half
forfeited my newly-assumed character. It is exceedingly difficult, thou
seest, for an honest man to act in disguises: as the poet says, Thrust
Nature back with a pitchfork, it will return. I recollected, that what
she had insisted upon was really a part of that declared will before she
left her father's house, to which in another case (to humble her) I had
pretended to have an inviolable regard. And when I had remembered her
words of taking her measures accordingly, I was resolved to sacrifice
a leg or an arm to make all up again, before she had time to determine
upon any new measures.
How seasonably to this purpose have come in my aunt's and cousin's
letters!
*****
I have sent in again and again to implore her to admit me to her
presence. But she will conclude a letter she is writing to Miss Howe,
before she will see me.--I suppose to give her an account of what has
just passed.
*****
Curse upon her perverse tyranny! How she makes me wait for an humble
audience, though she has done writing for some time! A prince begging
for her upon his knees should not prevail upon me to spare her, if I can
but get her to London--Oons! Jack, I believe I have bit my lip through
for vexation!--But one day her's shall smart for it.
Mr. Lovelace, beginning a new date, gives an account of his
admittance, and of the conversation that followed: which
differing only in style from that of the Lady gives in the
next letter is omitted.
He collects the lady's expressions, which his pride cannot
bear: such as, That he is a stranger to the decorums which
she thought inseparable from a man of birth and education;
and that he is not the accomplished man he imagines himself
to be; and threatens to remember them against her.
He values himself upon his proposals and speeches, which he
gives to his friend pretty much to the same purpose that
the Lady does in her four last letters.
After mentioning his proposal to her that she would borrow a
servant from Miss Howe, till Hannah could come, he writes
as follows:
Thou seest, Belford, that my charmer has no notion that
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