h, till now,
loved to raise a tempest, and to enjoy it: nor did they ever raise it,
but I enjoyed it too!--Lord send us once happily to London!
Mr. Lovelace gives the following account of his rude
rapture, when he seized her hand, and put her, by his WILD
manner, as she expresses it, Letter XXXIX. into such terror.
Darkness and light, I swore, were convertible at her pleasure: she could
make any subject plausible. I was all error: she all perfection. And I
snatched her hand; and, more than kissed it, I was ready to devour it.
There was, I believe, a kind of phrensy in my manner, which threw her
into a panic, like that of Semele perhaps, when the Thunderer, in all
his majesty, surrounded with ten thousand celestial burning-glasses, was
about to scorch her into a cinder.
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Had not my heart misgiven me, and had I not, just in time, recollected
that she was not so much in my power, but that she might abandon me at
her pleasure, having more friends in that house than I had, I should at
that moment have made offers, that would have decided all, one way
or other.--But, apprehending that I had shewn too much meaning in my
passion, I gave it another turn.--But little did the charmer think that
an escape either she or I had (as the event might have proved) from
that sudden gust of passion, which had like to have blown me into
her arms.--She was born, I told her, to make me happy and to save a
soul.----
He gives the rest of his vehement speech pretty nearly in
the same words as the Lady gives them: and then proceeds:
I saw she was frighted: and she would have had reason had the scene been
London, and that place in London, which I have in view to carry her to.
She confirmed me in my apprehension, that I had alarmed her too much:
she told me, that she saw what my boasted regard to her injunctions was;
and she would take proper measures upon it, as I should find: that she
was shocked at my violent airs; and if I hoped any favour from her, I
must that instant withdraw, and leave her to her recollection.
She pronounced this in such a manner as shewed she was set upon it; and,
having stepped out of the gentle, and polite part I had so newly engaged
to act, I thought ready obedience was the best atonement. And indeed I
was sensible, from her anger and repulses, that I wanted time myself
for recollection. And so I withdrew, with the same veneration as a
petitioning subject would withdraw
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