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can never forget the look in his eyes as I put him in the water and held him to put down the bucket. There are things a person goes through that make perfect happiness forever impossible. There are hours that stay." The face of the soldier's daughter was wet. "I love you for it, Ann," she whispered. "I love you for it. It was strong, Ann. It was fine." "I wasn't very strong and fine the minute it was over," sobbed Ann. "I fainted. They found me there. And then I screamed and laughed and said I was going to kill all the dogs in the world. I said--oh, dreadful things." "They should have understood," murmured Kate. "They didn't. They said I was wicked. They said the Evil One had entered into me. They said I must pray God to forgive me for having killed one of his creatures! Me--! "Of course it ended in Bible verses. Is it so strange I _loathed_ the Bible? And every morning I had to hear myself prayed for as a wicked girl who would harm one of God's creatures. The Almighty was implored not to send me to Hell. 'Send me there if you want to,' I'd say to myself on my knees, 'Tono's not in Hell, anyway.'" Ann laughed bitterly. "So that's why I'm a sacrilegious, blasphemous person who doesn't care much about hearing about God. I associate Him with thin lips that shut together tight-and people who make long prayers and break little dogs' hearts--and with boots--and souls--that squeak. I can't think of one single thing I ever heard about Him that made me like Him." "Oh, Ann dear!" protested Katie shudderingly. "Try not to think such things. Try not to feel that way. You haven't heard everything there is to hear about God. You haven't heard any of it in the right way." "Perhaps not. I only know what I have heard." And Ann's face was too white and hard for Katie to say more. "And your mother, dear? Where was she all this time? Didn't she love you--and help?" "She died when I was twelve. She'd like to have loved me. She did some on the sly--in a scared kind of way." Katie sat there contemplating the picture of Ann's father and mother and Ann--_Ann_, as child of that union. "I think she died because life frightened her so. In a year my father married again. _She_ isn't afraid of anything. She's a God-fearing, exemplary woman. And she always looks to see if you have any mud on your shoes." After a moment Ann said quietly: "I hate her." "So would I," said Katie, and it brought the ghost of a smile to
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