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Ann's lips, perhaps thinking of just how cordially Katie would hate her. "And then after a while you left this town?" Katie suggested as Ann seemed held there by something. "Yes, after a while I left." And that held her again. "I was fifteen when I--freed Tono from life," she emerged from it. "It was five years later that you--stopped me from freeing myself. Lots of things were crowded into those five years, Katie--or rather into the last three of them. I had to be treated worse than Tono was treated before it came to me that I had better be as kind to myself as I had been to my dog. Only I," Ann laughed, "didn't have anybody to give me a last hour!" "But you see it wasn't a last hour, after all," soothed Katie. "Only the last hour of the old hard things. Things that can never come back." "Can't they come back, Katie? Can't they?" Katie shook her head with decision. "Do you think I'd let them come back? Why I'd shut the door in their face!" "Sometimes," said Ann, "it seems to me they're lying in wait for me. That they're going to spring out. That this is a dream. That there isn't any Katie Jones. Some nights I've been afraid to go to sleep. Afraid of waking to find it a dream. There's an awful dream I dream sometimes! The dream is that this is a dream." "Poor dear," murmured Katie. "It will be more real now that we've talked." "I used to dream a dream, Katie, and I think it was about you. Only you weren't any one thing. You were all kinds of different things. Lovely things. You were Something Somewhere. You were the something that was way off beyond the nothingness of Centralia." "The something that didn't squeak," suggested Katie tremulously. "Something Somewhere. You were both a waking and a sleeping dream. I knew you were there. Isn't it queer how we do--know without knowing? My father used to talk about people being 'called.' Called to the ministry--called to the missionary field--called to heaven. Well maybe you're called to other things, too. Maybe," said Ann with a laugh which sobbed, "you're even 'called' to Chicago." The laugh died and the sob lingered. "Only when you get there--Chicago doesn't seem to know that it had called you. "My Something Somewhere was always something I never could catch up with. Sometimes it was a beautiful country--where a river wound through a woods. Sometimes it was beautiful people laughing and dancing. Sometimes it was a star. Sometimes it was a field of
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