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culous to be tied. I am quite indifferent to what anyone thinks of me. I would prefer it like that." "Why?" I asked, and wondered for a moment what had occurred. "There are so many stupid law things, if there is a marriage, and if you have the same from me without, surely you see that it is better." I first thought that it was this fear of my knowing her family history which was at the root of this suggestion, but then I remembered that she would know that I would hear it in any case from the Duchesse. What then could it be? I felt cruel, I was not going to make things too easy for her. If she has the will of the devil, she has also the pride! "If you are indifferent to such an invidious position as your new idea would place us in, I am not, I do not wish my friends to think that I am such a cad as presumably to have taken advantage of your being my secretary." "You wish to go on with the marriage then?" "Of course." She clasped her hands together suddenly, as if she could control herself no longer, and I thought of what she had said to Burton about feeling that she could not fight any more. I would not allow myself to sympathize with her. I was longing in every nerve of my being to take her into my arms, and tell her that I loved her, and knew everything, but I would not do this. I cannot let her master me, or we shall never have any peace. I will not tell her that I love her until her pride is broken, and I have made her love me and come to me voluntarily. She was silent. "I have informed the Duchesse de Courville that we are engaged. I saw her yesterday." She started perceptibly. "She has told you my real name?" "I have known that for some time. I thought I had made it plain to you that I am not interested about the subject, we need not mention it again, you have only to talk to old Robert Nelson, my lawyer, when he comes on Monday. He will tell you the settlements I propose to make, and you can discuss with him as to whether or not you think them satisfactory. Perhaps you on your side will tell me what reason you have strong enough to make a girl of your natural self-respect, willing to take the position of my apparent mistress?" She burst out for a second, throwing out her hands, then controlling herself. "No, I won't tell you.--I will tell you nothing, I will just stick to the bargain if I must. You have no right to my thoughts, only my actions!" I bowed; disagreeable as she w
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