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ed with theirs upon their tomb, in the roll of honour, as that of a man who perished in his country's service. I went there with Madame Bernard before I began my noviciate, and I went again, for the last time, before I took the veil. I had loved you living and I loved you dead.' Giovanni moved as if he were going to speak, but she would not let him. 'No, hear me!' she cried anxiously. 'I offered God my life and my strength for your sake, and if I have done any good here in five years, as novice and nun, it has been in the hope that it might be accepted for you, if your soul needed it. Though you may not believe in such things, do you at least understand me?' 'Indeed I do, and I am grateful--most grateful.' She was a little disappointed by his tone, for he spoke with an evident effort. 'It was gladly given,' she said. 'But now you have come back to life----' She hesitated. With all her courage and strength, she could not quite control her memory, and the words she had prepared so carefully were suddenly confused. Giovanni completed the sentence for her in his own way. 'I have come to life to find you dead for me, as I have been dead for you. Is that what you were going to say?' She was still hesitating. 'Was it that?' he insisted. 'No,' she answered, at last. 'Not dead for you--alive for you.' He would have caught at a straw, and the joy came into his face as he quickly held out his hand to her; but she would not take it: hers were both hidden under her white cloth scapular and she shrank from him. The light went out of his eyes. 'I might have known!' he said, deeply disappointed. 'You do not mean it. I suppose you will explain that you are alive to pray for me!' 'You promised to listen quietly, whatever I might say.' 'Yes.' He controlled himself. 'I will,' he added, after a moment. 'Go on.' 'I am not changed,' said Sister Giovanna, 'but my life is. That is what I meant by the inevitable. No person can undo what I have done'--Giovanni moved impatiently--'no power can loose me from my vows.' In spite of himself, the man's temper broke out. 'You are mad,' he answered roughly, 'or else you do not know that you can be free.' 'Hush!' cried the nun, trying once more to check him. 'Your promise--remember it!' 'I break it! I will not listen meekly to such folly! Before you took the vow, you had given me your word, as I gave you mine, that we would be man and wife, and since I am not
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