ruction of her happiness.
One day he told her that if she went to Buyukderer he would not only
follow her there, but he would remain there when Jimmy came out for the
summer holidays.
"Jimmy must learn to like me again," he said. "That is necessary."
She shuddered when she realized the tendency of Dion's mind. Fear made
her clairvoyant. There were moments when she seemed to look into that
mind as into a room through an open window, to see the thoughts as
living things going about their business. There was something appalling
in this man's brooding desire to strike her in the heart combined with
his determination to continue to be her lover. It affected her as she
had never been affected before. By torturing her imagination it made
havoc of her will-power. Her situation rendered her almost desperate,
and she could not find an outlet from it.
What was she to do? If she went to Buyukderer she felt certain there
would be a scandal. Even if there were not, she could not now dare to
risk having Jimmy out for his holidays. Jimmy and Dion must not meet
again. She might travel in the summer, as Dion had suggested, but if
she did that she would be forced to endure a solitude _a deux_ with him
untempered by any social distractions. She could not endure that. To be
alone with his bitterness, his misery, and his monopolizing hatred of
her would be unbearable. And the problem of Jimmy's holidays would not
be solved by travel. Unless she traveled to England!
A gleam of hope came to her as she thought of England. Dion had fled
from England. Would he dare to go back there, to the land which had seen
his tragedy, and where the woman lived who had cast him out? Mrs. Clarke
wondered, turning the thought of England over and over in her mind.
The longer she thought on the matter the more convinced she became that
she had hit upon a final test, by means of which it would be possible
for her to ascertain Dion's exact mental condition. If he was ready
to follow her even to England, to show himself there as her intimate
friend, if not as her lover, than the man whom she had known in London
was dead indeed beyond hope of resurrection.
She resolved to find out what Dion's feeling about England was.
Since the evening when she had told him the truth she had seen him--he
had obliged her to see him--every day, but he had not come again to her
flat. They had met in secret, as they had been meeting for many months.
For the days when they
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