She got through the meal-time as she could; swallowed tea, and even ate
bread, without knowing how it tasted, and heard Basil talk without
knowing what he said. As soon as she could she went up-stairs to the
baby, and waited till her husband should come too. But when he came, he
came to her, and did not go to his study.
"Basil I want to speak to you--will you come into the other room?" she
said huskily.
"Won't this room do to talk in?"
"No. It is over the kitchen."
"Jemima knows I never quarrel"--said Basil lightly; however, he led the
way into the study. He set a chair for Diana and took another himself,
but she remained standing.
"Basil--is God good?" she said.
"Yes. Inexpressibly good."
"Then why does he let such things happen?"
"Sit down, Di. You are not strong enough to talk standing. Such things?
What things?"
"Why does he let people be tempted above what they can bear?"
"He never does--his children--if that is what you mean. He always
provides a way of escape."
"Where?"
"At Christ's feet."
"Basil, how can I get there?" she said with a sob.
"You _are_ there, my darling," he said, putting her gently into the
easy-chair she had disregarded. "Those who trust in him, his hand never
lets go. They may seem to themselves to lose their standing--they may
not feel the ground under their feet--but he knows; and he will not let
them fall. If they hold fast to him, Diana."
"Basil, you don't know the whole."
"Do you want to tell me?"
Her voice was abrupt and hoarse; his was calm and cool as the fall of
the dew.
"I want to tell you if I can. But I shall hurt you."
"I am very willing, if it eases you. Go on."
"It wont ease me. But you must know it. You ought to know. O, Basil, I
made such a mistake when I married you!"--
She did not mean to say anything so bitter as that; she was where she
could not measure her words. Perhaps his face paled a little; in the
faint light she could not see the change of colour. His voice did not
change.
"What new has brought that up?"
"Nothing new. Something old. O Basil--his sister has been here to-day
to see me."
"Has she?" His voice did change a little then. "What did she come for?"
"I don't know. And _he_ will be here, perhaps, by and by. O Basil, do
you know who it is? And what shall I do?"
Diana had sprung up from her chair and dropped down on the floor by her
husband's side, and hid her face in her hands on his knee. His hand
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