met
quite frequently at Kilroot. Not very much is known of this episode,
but there is evidence that Swift fell in love with the girl, whom he
rather romantically called "Varina."
This cannot be called a serious love-affair. Swift was lonely, and Jane
Waring was probably the only girl of refinement who lived near Kilroot.
Furthermore, she had inherited a small fortune, while Swift was
miserably poor, and had nothing to offer except the shadowy prospect of
future advancement in England. He was definitely refused by her; and it
was this, perhaps, that led him to resolve on going back to England and
making his peace with Sir William Temple.
On leaving, Swift wrote a passionate letter to Miss Waring--the only
true love-letter that remains to us of their correspondence. He
protests that he does not want Varina's fortune, and that he will wait
until he is in a position to marry her on equal terms. There is a
smoldering flame of jealousy running through the letter. Swift charges
her with being cold, affected, and willing to flirt with persons who
are quite beneath her.
Varina played no important part in Swift's larger life thereafter; but
something must be said of this affair in order to show, first of all,
that Swift's love for her was due only to proximity, and that when he
ceased to feel it he could be not only hard, but harsh. His fiery
spirit must have made a deep impression on Miss Waring; for though she
at the time refused him, she afterward remembered him, and tried to
renew their old relations. Indeed, no sooner had Swift been made rector
of a larger parish, than Varina let him know that she had changed her
mind, and was ready to marry him; but by this time Swift had lost all
interest in her. He wrote an answer which even his truest admirers have
called brutal.
"Yes," he said in substance, "I will marry you, though you have treated
me vilely, and though you are living in a sort of social sink. I am
still poor, though you probably think otherwise. However, I will marry
you on certain conditions. First, you must be educated, so that you can
entertain me. Next, you must put up with all my whims and likes and
dislikes. Then you must live wherever I please. On these terms I will
take you, without reference to your looks or to your income. As to the
first, cleanliness is all that I require; as to the second, I only ask
that it be enough."
Such a letter as this was like a blow from a bludgeon. The insolence,
the c
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