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-grown, slender, with praiseworthy body; one noble, with brilliant face, as fair in body as the loveliest. "And to her speaks the soul of the pure man, questioning her who she might truly be. And thus replies to him His Own Law, shining, dove-eyed, loveliest: 'I am thy thoughts and works; I am thine own Law of thine own Self. Thou art like me, and I am like thee in goodness, in beauty, in all that I appear to thee. Beloved, come!' "And the soul of the pure man takes one step and is in the First Paradise, Humata; and takes a second step, and is in the Second Paradise, Hukhta; and takes a third step, and is in the Third Paradise, Hvarsta. "And takes one last step into the Eternal Lights for ever." His haggard eyes were still fixed vacantly on the printed page, but he saw nothing now. Something in the still air of the room had arrested his attention--something faintly fresh--an evanescent hint of perfume. Suddenly the blood surged up in his face; he half rose, turned where he lay and looked back at the letter on the floor. "Damn it," he said. And rising heavily, he went to it, picked it up, and broke the scented seal. "Will you misunderstand me, Mr. Berkley? They say that the pages of friendship are covered with records of misunderstandings. "We _were_ friends. Can it not be so again? I have thought so long and so steadily about it that I no longer exactly know whether I may venture to write to you or whether the only thing decently left me is silence, which for the second time I am breaking now, because I cannot believe that I offered my friendship to such a man as you have said you are. It is not in any woman to do it. Perhaps it is self-respect that protests, repudiates, denies what you have said to me of yourself; and perhaps it is a sentiment less austere. I can no longer judge. "And now that I have the courage--or effrontery--to write you once more, will you misconstrue my letter--and my motive? If I cannot be reconciled to what I hear of you--if what I hear pains, frightens me out of a justifiable silence which perhaps you might respect, will you respect my motive for breaking it the less? I do not know. But the silence is now broken, and I must endure the consequences. "Deep unhappiness I have never known; but I recognise it in others when I see it, and would aid always if I could. Try to understand me. "But despair terrifies me--I who never have known it--and I do not un
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