held by many,
and are far more difficult to refute in the Roman controversy, than
those of any other religious body.

"For myself, I found _I could not_ hold them. I left them. From the
time I began to suspect their unsoundness, I ceased to put them
forward. When I was fairly sure of their unsoundness, I gave up my
Living. When I was fully confident that the Church of Rome was the
only true Church, I joined her.

"I have felt all along that Bp. Bull's theology was the only theology
on which the English Church could stand. I have felt, that opposition
to the Church of Rome was _part_ of that theology; and that he who
could not protest against the Church of Rome was no true divine in
the English Church. I have never said, nor attempted to say, that any
one in office in the English Church, whether Bishop or incumbent,
could be otherwise than in hostility to the Church of Rome."

The _Via Media_ then disappeared for ever, and a new Theory, made
expressly for the occasion, took its place. I was pleased with my new
view. I wrote to an intimate friend, Dec. 13, 1841, "I think you will
give me the credit, Carissime, of not undervaluing the strength of
the feelings which draw one [to Rome], and yet I am (I trust) quite
clear about my duty to remain where I am; indeed, much clearer than I
was some time since. If it is not presumptuous to say, I have ... a
much more definite view of the promised inward Presence of Christ
with us in the Sacraments now that the outward notes of it are being
removed. And I am content to be with Moses in the desert, or with
Elijah excommunicated from the Temple. I say this, putting things at
the strongest."

However, my friends of the moderate Apostolical party, who were my
friends for the very reason of my having been so moderate and
Anglican myself in general tone in times past, who had stood up for
Tract 90 partly from faith in me, and certainly from generous and
kind feeling, and had thereby shared an obloquy which was none of
theirs, were naturally surprised and offended at a line of argument,
novel, and, as it appeared to them, wanton, which threw the whole
controversy into confusion, stultified my former principles, and
substituted, as they would consider, a sort of methodistic
self-contemplation, especially abhorrent both to my nature and to my
past professions, for the plain and honest tokens, as they were
commonly received, of a divine mission in the Anglican Church. They
could not tel