e, as if she could not endure to
prolong the space for last words.
They came at last. Theodora sat ready for her journey, holding her
god-daughter in her arms, and looking from her to Violet, without a
word; then gazing round the room, which had been the scene of such
changes of her whole mind.
At last she spoke, and it was very different from what Violet expected,
'Violet, I will try to endure it; but if I cannot--if you hear of me as
doing what you will disapprove, will you refrain from giving me up, and
at least be sorry for me?'
After what Lord Martindale had said, Violet could guess at her meaning.
'Certainly, dear Theodora. You would not do it if it was wrong?'
'You know what I mean?'
'I think I do.'
'And you are not infinitely shocked?'
'No; for you would not do it unless you could rightly.'
'How do you mean?'
'Not if there was--anything remaining--of the former--'
'You are a good little thing, Violet,' said Theodora, trying to laugh;
'nearly as simple as your daughter. You will save her a great deal of
trouble, if you tame her while she is young.'
Then came a pause, lasting till Theodora thought she heard the carriage.
'You will forgive me if I accept him?'
'I shall know it is all right. I trust you, dear sister.'
'Tell me something to help me!'
Violet drew out Helen's cross. 'Be patient, be patient,' she said. 'The
worse things are, the more of the cross to be borne.'
Theodora held out her hand for it. 'I hope I am mending,' said she, as
she gave it back with a melancholy smile. 'It does not give me the
bad jealous thoughts I had when first I knew you possessed it. Tell me
something to make me patient.'
'May I tell you what came into my head after you were talking last night
of not seeing your way, and wanting to be led. I thought of a verse in
Isaiah.' Violet found the place and showed it.
'Who is among you that feareth the Lord, that obeyeth the voice of His
servant, that walketh in darkness, and hath no light? Let him trust in
the name of the Lord and stay upon his God.'
'Thank you, Violet,' said Theodora, looking on to the next verse. 'I
will try to be patient; I will try not to kindle a fire for myself. But
if they tease me much, if I am very weary--'
The summons cut her short--Lord Martindale ran up to hasten her; a
fervent embrace--she was gone!
And Violet, with worn-out strength and spirits, remained to find how
desolate she was--left behind in dreary su
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