was to be Helen, and to this Violet softly added,
Theodora.
'No, no; that will bring her no good. It is Aunt Nesbit's name.'
'It is one I love the sound of.'
'You won't another time.'
Violet vaguely perceived something amiss; but too weak to think about
it, closed her eyes and fell into a doze.
Those few gentle sayings had brought back Theodora's affection and sense
of right. She longed to recall her glance. If it had taken effect she
must persevere. She could not endure the humiliation of having a third
time trifled with a lover; she would not feel herself sunk into a mere
coquette. But what would Violet think!
Violet suddenly awoke with a terrified gaze. 'Arthur! Arthur! O, where
is he!'
'Down-stairs, dearest; he will come.' But to her extreme alarm, the
words had no effect.
'Arthur! O, when will he come? Why did he go away?'
Dismayed out of all presence of mind, Theodora rang with a violent
peal, and flew down-stairs, the baby in her arms, rousing Arthur from
a slumber in his chair by breathless tidings that Violet was worse--was
delirious; Mr. Harding must be sent for--
When Arthur had hurried up-stairs, it proved to be only a frightened
wakening, such as had often happened last year. She was perfectly
conscious, but so much fluttered and agitated by Theodora's own
proceedings, that it was with great difficulty that Arthur could soothe
and tranquillize her on her baby's account. The nurse was very angry,
and Theodora perceived her delinquency might have serious consequences,
especially when she beheld Violet, still tremulous from the alarm,
endeavouring to reassure them, to shield her from displeasure, and to
take all the blame to herself for her foolish terror.
There was an end of Theodora's grand designs of nursing! She could only
enter the room at all by favour of the patient and by sufferance of the
nurse; and she could attempt no remonstrance when ordered off by her
brother, and even felt unworthy of Violet's kiss.
That little scene of trivialities had been her first true humiliation.
It had shown her the vanity of her boast of strength of mind; for when
she thought of the morning's unreasonable ill-humour, and unkindness to
her brother and his wife at such a moment, and of the coquetry with Lord
St. Erme, she was indeed lowered in her own eyes; and it was sorrow, not
bitterness.
Her heart was very heavy, but less hard. Slowly had the power of
Violet's meekness and lowliness been s
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