k my medicine, my hearty prayer each time was
something like this: "Lord, Thou knowest that this medicine is in itself
nothing, no more than as if I were to take a little water. Now please, 0
Lord, to let it produce the effect which is for my real welfare, and for
Thy glory. Let me either be taken soon to Thyself or let me be soon
restored; let me be ill for a longer time, and then taken to Thyself, or
let me be ill for a longer time, and then restored. 0 Lord, do with me as
seemeth Thee best!" One sin in particular was brought to my mind, which I
never had seen before, viz., that whilst all my life, even in former
sicknesses, I had been blessed with uninterrupted refreshing sleep, which
now, for some nights, had almost entirely fled from my eyes, I had never
heartily thanked God for it.

After I had been ill about a fortnight, my medical attendant unexpectedly
pronounced me better. This, instead of giving me joy, bowed me down, so
great was my desire to be with the Lord; though almost immediately
afterwards grace was given me to submit myself to the will of God. After
some days I was able to leave my room. Whilst recovering I still continued
in a spiritual state of heart, desiring to depart and to be with Christ.
As I recovered but slowly, my friends entreated me to go into the country
for change of air; but my heart was in such a happy and spiritual frame,
that I did not like the thought of traveling and seeing places. So far was
I changed, who once had been so passionately fond of traveling. But as my
friends continued to advise me to go into the country, I thought at last
that it might be the will of God that I should do so, and I prayed
therefore thus to the Lord: "Lord, I will gladly submit myself to Thy
will, and go if Thou wilt have me to go. And now let me know Thy will by
the answer of my medical attendant. If, in reply to my question, he says
it would be very good for me, I will go; but if he says it is of no great
importance, then I will stay." When I asked him, he said that it was the
best thing I could do. I was then enabled willingly to submit, and
accordingly went to Teignmouth. It was there that I became acquainted with
my beloved brother, friend, and fellow-labourer, Henry Craik.

A few days after my arrival at Teignmouth, the chapel, called Ebenezer,
was reopened, and I attended the opening. I was much impressed by one of
those who preached on the occasion. For though I did not like all he said,
yet I