greatest watchfulness and faithfulness, in making use of one's time for
prayer, meditation, and reading the Scriptures.--I had five answers to
prayer today. 1. I awoke at five, for which I had asked the Lord last
evening. 2. The Lord removed from my dear wife an indisposition, under
which she had been suffering. It would have been trying to me to have had
to leave her in that state. 3. The Lord sent us money. 4. There was a
place vacant on the Dartmouth coach, which only passes through Teignmouth.
5. This evening I was assisted in preaching, and my own soul refreshed.
April 17. I preached again at Dartmouth. April 18. I am still at
Dartmouth. I wrote to Brother Craik, that, the Lord willing, I should be
with him at Bristol on the 21st. I preached again this evening, with
especial assistance, before a large congregation. April 19. I awoke early,
and had a good while to myself for prayer and reading the Word, and left
happy in spirit for Torquay, where I preached in the evening with much
help. The brethren are sorry, that, on account of my going to Bristol, my
regular weekly preaching will be given up there for a while. I walked home
after preaching, and arrived at Teignmouth at twelve o'clock.
April 20. I left this morning for Bristol. I preached with little power
(as to my own feeling) in Exeter, from three till half-past four. At five
I left for Taleford, where I preached in the evening, likewise with little
power. I was very tired in body, and had had therefore little prayer. But
still, in both places, the believers seemed refreshed. I went to bed at
eleven, very, very tired.
April 21. This morning I rose a little before five, and attended a prayer
meeting from a quarter past five, to a quarter past six. I spoke for some
time at the meeting. Afterwards I prayed and read again with some
believers, and likewise expounded the Scriptures. The Bristol coach took
me up about ten. I was very faithless on the journey.
I did not speak a single word for Christ, and was therefore wretched in
my soul. This has shown me again my weakness. Though the Lord had been so
gracious to me yesterday, in this particular, both on my way from
Teignmouth to Exeter, and from Exeter to Taleford, and had given me much
encouragement, in that He made my fellow-travellers either thankfully to
receive the word, or constrained them quietly to listen to the testimony;
yet I did not confess Him today. Nor did I give away a single tract,
though I
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