I broke the blood
vessel.--In relating the particulars of this circumstance I would earnestly
warn every one who may read this, not to imitate me in such a thing if he
has no faith; but if he has, it will, as good coin, most assuredly be
honoured by God. I could not say, that, if such a thing should happen
again, I would act in the same way; for when I have been not nearly so
weak as when I had broken the blood-vessel, having no faith, I did not
preach; yet if it were to please the Lord to give me faith, I might be
able to do the same, though even still weaker than at the time just spoken
of.

About this time I repeatedly prayed with sick believers till they were
restored. Unconditionally I asked the Lord for the blessing of bodily
health, (a thing which I could not do now), and almost always had the
petition granted. In some instances, however, the prayer was not answered.
In the same way, whilst in London, Nov. 1829, in answer to my prayers, I
was immediately restored from a bodily infirmity under which I had been
labouring for a long time, and which has never returned since. The way in
which I now account for these facts is as follows. It pleased the Lord, I
think, to give me in such cases something like the gift (not grace) of
faith, so that unconditionally I could ask and look for an answer. The
difference between the gift and the grace of faith seems to me this.
According to the gift of faith I am able to do a thing, or believe that a
thing will come to pass, the not doing of which, or the not believing of
which would not be sin; according to the grace of faith I am able to do a
thing, or believe that a thing will come to pass, respecting which I have
the word of God as the ground to rest upon, and, therefore, the not doing
it, or the not believing it would be sin. For instance, the gift of faith
would be needed, to believe that a sick person should be restored again
though there is no human probability: for there is no promise to that
effect; the grace of faith is needed to believe that the Lord will give me
the necessaries of life, if I first seek the kingdom of God and His
righteousness: for there is a promise to that effect." Matt. vi.

March 18. These two days we have not been able to purchase meat. The
sister in whose house we lodge gave us today part of her dinner. We are
still looking to Jesus for deliverance. We want money to pay the weekly
rent and to buy provisions. March 19. Our landlady sent again of