what of him? Why, he is wealthy, and high, and handsome--but I do not love
him; yet if he offers himself I shall say yes, for, as Mrs. Carrington
says, 'he is a great catch.'"

Sept. 5--"Mr. Wilmot is dead, and with him died my poor, poor heart. Had he
lived, he possibly might have turned to me, for Julia knew how much I
loved him. Dear, generous Julia, how I wish Dr. Lacey would love her, for
she is more worthy of him than I am."

Jan. 1--"Heigh ho, I'm engaged to Dr. Lacey! Who would think it? Now I am
happy! Oh, no. Out in the graveyard lies one who could have made me happy.
Ought I thus to deceive Dr. Lacey? Why, yes; if he is satisfied, it is
well enough. I am ambitious, and if I can't marry for love, I will for
money. And then he's given me so beautiful a piano. Oh, I hope he'll send
me more presents after he gets home!"

Jan. 15--"Dr. Lacey has gone and I feel relieved. But just think of
it--Julia loves him devotedly. I wish he knew it. She has always loved him
and tries to make me do the same. She read me a sermon today two hours
long about my duty. Fudge on my duty! As long as I can make Joshua and Dr.
Lacey think I'm all sunshine, it's no matter if my love is all moonshine."

This journal was interspersed here and there with tears, and was so exact
an imitation of Fanny's writing that Dr. Lacey was completely duped. He,
however, wondered that Julia should show it to him. She had foreseen this,
and as he was reading the last few lines she was looking over her
portfolio. Suddenly springing up, she snatched the paper from his hands,
saying, "Oh, what have I done? I've shown you the wrong part of the
journal. I did not mean you to see this. What shall I do? You'll hate
Fanny and despise me."

"Why despise you?" asked Dr. Lacey.

"Because," replied Julia, "you will dislike me for the foolish thing which
Fan wrote about me. I could not help her writing it."

"And is it true?" asked Dr. Lacey.

"Oh, you must not ask me that--I can't tell--I shan't tell--" and seizing her
portfolio Julia started off toward the house, thinking possibly she should
be pursued. But she was not.

During the reading of the journal Dr. Lacey's heart seemed to go through a
benumbing process, which rendered it perfectly palsied. No emotion either
of love or anger did he feel toward Fanny. She was nought to him.

And how did the knowledge that Julia loved him affect him? Answer, any
man, whether your wounded pride is