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o had told his story, finding them, to his dismay, unexpectedly crude and unlifelike. And the story itself. Was unhappiness so necessary, after all? They suddenly seemed to crumble away into insignificance, these men and women of his creation. In their place he could almost fancy a race of larger beings, a more extensive canvas, a more splendid, a riper and richer vocabulary. "Nothing that I have ever done," he sighed, "is worth talking to you about. But if you are going to be my friend--" "Well?" "If you are going to be my friend," he went on, with almost inspired conviction, "I shall write something different." "One can rebuild," she murmured. "One can sometimes use the old pieces. Life and chess are both like that." "Would you help me, I wonder?" he asked impulsively. She looked away from him, out across the steamer rail. She seemed to be measuring with her eyes the roll of the ship as it rose and fell in the trough of the sea. "You are a strange person," she said. "Tell me, are you in the habit of becoming suddenly dependent upon people?" "Not I," he assured her. "If I were to tell you how my last ten years have been spent, you would not believe me. You couldn't. If I were to speak of a tearing, unutterable loneliness, if I were to speak of poverty--not the poverty you know anything about, but the poverty of bare walls, of coarse food and little enough of it, of everything cheap and miserable and soiled and second-hand--nothing fresh, nothing real--" He stopped abruptly. "But I forgot," he muttered. "I can't explain." "Is one to understand," she asked, a little puzzled, "that you have had difficulties in your business?" "I have never been in business," he answered quickly. "My name is Romilly, but I am not Romilly the manufacturer. For the last eight years I have lived in a garret in London, teaching false art in a third-rate school some of the time, doing penny-a-line journalistic work when I got the chance; clerk for a month or two in a brewer's office and sacked for incapacity--those are a few of the real threads in my life." "At the present moment, then," she observed, "you are an impostor." "Exactly," he admitted, "and I should probably have been repenting it by now but for your words last night." She smiled at him and the sun shone once more. It wasn't an ordinary smile at all. It was just as though she were letting him into the light of her understanding, as though some one f
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