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wn at her bidding; but with elbows resting on the table he covered his face with his hands. She clasped her own and sat looking at him. That is, she sat looking at his strong knuckles and at the shock of dark hair that fell over the finger-tips where the nails dug into his forehead. She felt a great pity for him; but a pity that permitted her to sit there, watchful, detached, not as if it was Thor--but some one else. There would be an end now to silences and concealments. She saw that already. He was making no further attempt to keep her in the dark. In the shock of the moment all the barricades he had built around his secret life had fallen like the walls of Jericho. She had nothing to do but walk upward and inward and take possession. All was open. There was neither shrine nor sanctuary any longer. It was no privilege to be admitted thus; anybody would have been admitted who sat beside him as she was sitting now. But in the end the paroxysm passed and his hands came down. "I know it's hard for you, Thor--" The eyes he turned on her were full of such unspeakable things that she stopped. She was obliged to wait till he looked away again before she could go on. "I know it's hard for you, Thor. It's hard for--for us all. But my point is that bitterness or violence will only make it worse. You must remember--I feel that I _must_ remind you of it--that you're not the--not the only sufferer." He bowed his head into his hands again, but without the mad anguish of a few minutes earlier. "Where so much is intolerable," she pursued, "what we have to do--each one of us--is to see how tolerable we can make things for every one else." He raised his head for one quick, reproachful glance. "Do you mean tolerable for--for Claude?" "Yes, I do mean for Claude. _We_ sha'n't have to punish him." He gave her another look. "Then what have we got to do?" "Nothing that isn't kind--and well thought out beforehand. That's really the important thing. When one can't move without hurting some one, isn't it better not to move at all?" It was the old doctrine of tarrying the Lord's leisure against which his instincts were still in revolt. His indignation was such that he could partially turn and face her. "Do you mean to say that we should _let_ him abandon her--_now_?" She laid her hand on his arm. "Oh, Thor dear, it isn't for us to let--or prevent--or anything. We can't drive other people--and it's only to a slight degree
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