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like--a dream you'd go through again. No; you wouldn't go through it again--it would kill you." She grew incoherent. "Oh, I don't know--I don't know. It's gone--just gone. I don't say it wasn't real. It _was_ real. It was a kind of frenzy. It got hold of me. It got hold of me body and soul. I couldn't think of anything else--while it lasted." Lois was pained. "Oh, but, Rosie, love can't come and go like that." "Can't it? Then it wasn't love." But she contradicted herself again. "Yes, it _was_ love. It was love--while it lasted." While it lasted! While it lasted! The phrase seemed to be on every one's lips. There was distress in Lois's voice as she said, "But if it was love, Rosie, it ought to have lasted." And Rosie seemed to agree with her. "Yes, it ought to have. But it didn't. It went away. No, it didn't go away; it just--it just--_wasn't_." She wrung her hands, struggling with the difficulty she found in explaining herself. "After that day at Duck Rock it was like--it was like the breaking of a spell that was on me. Everything was different. It was like seeing through plain daylight again after looking through colored glass. I didn't want the things I'd been wanting. They were foolish to me--I _saw_ they were foolish--and--and impossible. But it wasn't as if they had died; it was as if I had--and come back." It was on behalf of love that Lois felt driven to make a protest. "And yet, Rosie, if you were to see Claude again--" "No, no, no," the girl cried, excitedly; "I don't want to see him. He needn't stay away--not on my account--but I sha'n't see him if I can help it. It would be like dying the second time. All the same, he needn't be afraid of me; and his family needn't be afraid of me. I want to--to forget them all." Enlightenment came slowly to Lois because of her unwillingness to be convinced of the heart's capriciousness. That love could be likened to brain-storm--obsession--the tornado whose rage dies out in an afternoon--was a wound to her tenderest beliefs. That the natural man must be taken into consideration as well as the spiritual also did violence to what she would have liked to make a serene, smooth theory of life. She stood looking long at the girl, studying her subconsciously, before she was able to say, calmly: "Very well, Rosie, dear. I'll let Claude know. I can get his address, and I'll write to him." But another surprise was in store for her. She was near the door leading from
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