but there was
one whom he had never conquered--one that held him in leading-strings,
and was pulling him down to ruin and destruction.
He must conquer himself.
Richard had had such thoughts as these before, but they had never
seemed so substantial as now. He felt the necessity of reforming his
life and character--of conquering himself, his greatest enemy. As he
looked upon his dissolute course, upon the events of the preceding
night, and its fellow a week before, he was disgusted with himself, and
wondered how he could so easily embrace his besetting sin.
While he was engaged in these reflections, his sister Bertha entered
his chamber. She had heard of the sentence, and she had come to comfort
him. Her eyes were still red with weeping, for she had almost lost hope
of the reform of her brother.
"I have been trying to see you for the last two hours," said she, as
she sat down by his side.
"Don't cry any more, Berty," said he, with unwonted tenderness.
"I will try not to do so, Richard. Father says you are going away
to-morrow."
"Yes, Berty, I suppose I am," replied he, with an appearance of
resignation.
"I shall miss you very much."
"It will be a good miss--won't it?"
"Why, Richard! You don't think so--do you?"
"Well, I have been a kind of nuisance to you."
"No, Richard; don't say that."
"I have been in all sorts of scrapes."
"I would a great deal rather have you stay at home, and--and----"
"And be a good boy," added Richard.
"That's what I mean, Richard."
"Berty, I think I have sowed all my wild oats now."
"I hope so."
"I suppose I have been a very bad boy," said he, with a kind of
deprecating smile, as though he did not believe more than one half he
said.
"It was all those bad boys you went with; if it hadn't been for them,
you would have done very well. That Sandy Brimblecom hasn't done you
any good."
"I hope I haven't done him any hurt, Berty. I won't be mean, when I get
into trouble. I don't think Sandy is any worse than I am. I don't know
but that he is a little better. I suppose he and I must part company
now."
"It will be all for the best."
"Berty, I am off to-morrow. I have given you a great deal of trouble. I
mean to do better. I am going to turn over a new leaf."
"O, I hope so, Richard!"
"I mean so, this time."
"I am so glad!"
"Don't you think father will let me stay at home, if I do well?"
"Perhaps he will."
"I don't like the idea of being
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