led on the man, "what I came
to tell you to-night, what I don't wish to tell you but must--Elice,
don't look at me, please; don't! My nerve's gone. Don't you wish to ask
me questions instead?"
"Perhaps," obediently the girl turned away, "after you've made things
clear a bit. Don't fancy I'm trying to make it hard for you. I'm not,
only, only--Remember, I'm all in the dark yet, all confused."
"Yes, I know--and I'm to blame. I've been trying for a week to bring
myself to tell you, one thing at a time; but I couldn't, and
now--everything's tumbled on my head together now."
"Everything? Steve, begin somewhere, anywhere. Don't suggest things; tell
me. It's been ten days since you called last. Why was that?"
"I was afraid. I tried to come, but I couldn't."
"Afraid of what?"
"Of you, of myself, of life. I've known that long to a certainty that the
play was over between you and me, but I couldn't bring myself to say the
word. It's just this I was afraid of. This!"
"You mean to tell me now that all is over?" Unconsciously this time the
girl had shifted facing; quietly--again, too quietly--was putting the
query direct: "That's what you're telling me now?"
"Yes."
"And why--Am I the cause--have I by word or act--have I?"
"No."
"Is it because you've lost your chair in the University?"
"No."
"Why, then?"
"Because we've ceased to be necessary to each other, have grown apart."
"You think we've changed?... I've not changed."
"No. It's I who have changed, have grown away from you."
"Since when? Let's have it all. Let's understand everything. Since
when?"
"I don't know when, can't set a date. I merely know."
"That--that you don't care for me any more?"
[Illustration: "Steve!" The girl was on her feet. "I never dreamed,
never--You poor boy!" (_Page 153_)]
A halt, a long, long halt.
"Yes, Elice," said a voice at last. "I've found out that I don't care for
you any more."
As before, the girl said nothing, never stirred.
"I shan't try to defend myself, try to explain," stumbled on the man. "I
couldn't if I would. The thing has simply come about--I wish to ask you
to release me."
"Steve!" Of a sudden the girl was on her feet, the forced composure of a
moment ago in tatters, the tiny hands locked tight. "I can't believe it,
can't credit it. I love you, Steve, in spite of all you've told me; more,
because you need me more now." The locked fingers opened. She came a step
forward in mute ap
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