will pass away, and that I shall wake up and
find myself in Dulwich; that I shall see my viola da gamba standing in
the corner; that a rap at the front door will tell me that a pupil has
come for a lesson."
"Do you remember the lessons that you gave me on the viola da gamba?"
She looked at him beseechingly.
"Then it is true. I suppose it is true, but I wish I could feel this
life to be true."
She looked up and saw the clouds moving across the sky; she looked down
and saw the people passing along the streets.
"In a few days, in a few weeks, this life will seem quite real. But, if
you cannot bear the present, how will you bear the success that is to
come?"
"When I was a tiny girl, the other girls used to say, 'Evey, dear, do
make that funny noise in your throat,' and that was my trill. But since
mother's death everything went wrong; it seemed that I would never get
out of Dulwich. I never should have if it had not been for you. I had
ceased to believe that I had a voice."
"In that throat there are thousands of pounds."
Evelyn put her hand to her throat to assure herself that it was still on
her shoulders.
"I wonder, I wonder. To think that in a year--in a year and a half--I
shall be singing on the stage! They will throw me bouquets, I suppose?"
"Oh, yes, you need have no fear about that; this park would not suffice
to grow all the flowers that will be thrown at your feet."
"It seems impossible that I--poor, miserable I--should be moving towards
such splendour. I wonder if I shall ever get there, and, if I do get
there, if I shall be able to live through it. I cannot yet see myself
the great singer you describe. Yet I suppose it is all quite certain."
"Quite certain."
"Then why can't I imagine it?"
"We cannot imagine ourselves in other than our present circumstances;
the most commonplace future is as unimaginable as the most extravagant."
"I suppose that is so."
The carriage stopped at the Continental, and he asked her what she would
like to do. It was just five.
"Come and have a cup of tea in the Rue Cambon."
She consented, and, after tea, he said, standing with one foot on the
carriage step--
"If you'll allow me to advise you, you will go for a drive in the Bois
by yourself. I want to see some pictures."
"May I not come?"
"Certainly, if you like, but I don't think you could give your attention
to pictures; you're thinking of yourself, and you want to be alone with
yoursel
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