s to
address them under sickness and affliction. We have no common ground on
which to stand; no intelligible medium through which to communicate with
them. It is having both a language and a science to learn at once."
In the morning Dr. Barlow again visited Mr. Tyrrel. He found him still
in great perturbation of mind. Feeling himself quite sensible, he had
begun to make his will. He had made large bequests to several charities.
Dr. Barlow highly approved of this; but reminded him, that though he
himself would never recommend charity as a commutation or a bribe, yet
some immediate acts of bounty, while there was a possibility of his
recovery, would be a better earnest of his repentance than the
bequeathing his whole estate when it could be of no further use to
himself. He was all acquiescence.
He desired to see Mr. Stanley. He recommended to him his nephew, over
whose conduct Mr. Stanley promised to have an eye. He made him and Dr.
Barlow joint executors. He offered to leave them half his fortune. With
their usual disinterestedness they positively refused to accept it, and
suggested to him a better mode of bestowing it.
He lifted up his hands and eyes, saying, "This is indeed
Christianity--pure, undefiled religion! If it be not faith, it is its
fruits. If it be not the procuring cause of salvation, it is one
evidence of a safe state. O, Mr. Stanley, our last conversation has sunk
deep into my heart. You had begun to pull the vail from my eyes; but
nothing tears the whole mask off, like the hand of death, like impending
judgment. How little have I considered eternity! Judgment was not in all
my thoughts, I had got rid of the terrors of responsibility! O, Dr.
Barlow, is there any hope for me?"
"Sir," replied the Doctor, "your sin is not greater because you feel it:
so far from it, your danger diminishes in proportion as it is discerned.
Your condition is not worse but better, because you are become sensible
of your own sins and wants. I judge far more favorably of your state
now, than when you thought so well of it. Your sense of the evil of your
own heart is the best proof of your sincerity; your repentance toward
God is the best evidence of your faith in our Lord Jesus Christ."
"Doctor, it is too late," replied the sick man. "How can I show that my
repentance is sincere? In this miserable condition how can I glorify
God?"
"Sir," replied Dr. Barlow, "you must lay anew the whole foundation of
your faith. That
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