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n into your arms, and know you for his father." "And I shall be ashamed to look at him!" said Tom. An hour or so after, he woke from a short sleep, and his eyes sought Letty's watching face. "I have seen baby," he said, "and he has forgiven me. I dare say it was only a dream," he added, "but somehow it makes me happier. At least, I know how the thing might be." "It was true, whether it was but a dream or something more," said Mary, who happened to be by. "Thank you, Mary," he returned. "You and Letty have saved me from what I dare not think of! I could die happy now--if it weren't for one thing." "What is that?" asked Mary. "I am ashamed to say," he replied, "but I ought to say it and bear the shame, for the man who does shamefully ought to be ashamed. It is that, when I am in my grave--or somewhere else, for I know Mary does not like people to talk about being in their graves--you say it is heathenish, don't you, Mary?--when I am where they can't find me, then, it is horrid to think that people up here will have a hold on me and a right over me still, because of debts I shall never be able to pay them." "Don't be too sure of that, Tom," said Mary, cheerfully. "I think you will pay them yet.--But I have heard it said," she went on, "that a man in debt never tells the truth about his debts--as if he had only the face to make them, not to talk about them: can you make a clean breast of it, Tom?" "I don't exactly know what they are; but I always did mean to pay them, and I have some idea about them. I don't think they would come to more than a hundred pounds." "Your mother would not hesitate to pay that for you?" said Mary. "I know she wouldn't; but, then, I'm thinking of Letty." He paused, and Mary waited. "You know, when I am gone," he resumed, "there will be nothing for her but to go to my mother; and it breaks my heart to think of it. Every sin of mine she will lay to her charge; and how am I to lie still in my grave--oh, I beg your pardon, Mary." "I will pay your debts, Tom, and gladly," said Mary, "if they don't come to much more than you say--than you think, I mean." "But, don't you see, Mary, that would be only a shifting of my debt from them to you? Except for Letty, it would not make the thing any better." "What!" said Mary, "is there no difference between owing a thing to one who loves you and one who does not? to one who would always be wishing you had paid him and one who
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