had one,' was
the answer.
'Nor I neither,' said Bella. 'Not that my life has been lonely, for I
could have sometimes wished it lonelier, instead of having Ma going on
like the Tragic Muse with a face-ache in majestic corners, and Lavvy
being spiteful--though of course I am very fond of them both. I wish
you could make a friend of me, Lizzie. Do you think you could? I have
no more of what they call character, my dear, than a canary-bird, but I
know I am trustworthy.'
The wayward, playful, affectionate nature, giddy for want of the
weight of some sustaining purpose, and capricious because it was always
fluttering among little things, was yet a captivating one. To Lizzie it
was so new, so pretty, at once so womanly and so childish, that it won
her completely. And when Bella said again, 'Do you think you could,
Lizzie?' with her eyebrows raised, her head inquiringly on one side,
and an odd doubt about it in her own bosom, Lizzie showed beyond all
question that she thought she could.
'Tell me, my dear,' said Bella, 'what is the matter, and why you live
like this.'
Lizzie presently began, by way of prelude, 'You must have many lovers--'
when Bella checked her with a little scream of astonishment.
'My dear, I haven't one!'
'Not one?'
'Well! Perhaps one,' said Bella. 'I am sure I don't know. I HAD one, but
what he may think about it at the present time I can't say. Perhaps I
have half a one (of course I don't count that Idiot, George Sampson).
However, never mind me. I want to hear about you.'
'There is a certain man,' said Lizzie, 'a passionate and angry man, who
says he loves me, and who I must believe does love me. He is the friend
of my brother. I shrank from him within myself when my brother first
brought him to me; but the last time I saw him he terrified me more than
I can say.' There she stopped.
'Did you come here to escape from him, Lizzie?'
'I came here immediately after he so alarmed me.'
'Are you afraid of him here?'
'I am not timid generally, but I am always afraid of him. I am afraid
to see a newspaper, or to hear a word spoken of what is done in London,
lest he should have done some violence.'
'Then you are not afraid of him for yourself, dear?' said Bella, after
pondering on the words.
'I should be even that, if I met him about here. I look round for him
always, as I pass to and fro at night.'
'Are you afraid of anything he may do to himself in London, my dear?'
'No. He mig
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