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sionate appeal to that inward witness of the soul which holds its own long after the reason has practically ceased to struggle. It came about in this way. One morning he stood reading in the window of the library the last of the Squire's letters. It contained a short but masterly analysis of the mental habits and idiosyncrasies of St. Paul, _a propos_ of St. Paul's witness to the Resurrection. Every now and then, as Elsmere turned the pages, the orthodox protest would assert itself, the orthodox arguments make themselves felt as though in mechanical involuntary protest. But their force and vitality were gone. Between the Paul of Anglican theology and the fiery, fallible man of genius--so weak logically, so strong in poetry, in rhetoric, in moral passion, whose portrait has been drawn for us by a free and temperate criticism--the Rector knew, in a sort of dull way, that his choice was made. The one picture carried reason and imagination with it; the other contented neither. But as he put down the letter something seemed to snap within him. Some chord of physical endurance gave way. For five months he had been living intellectually at a speed no man maintains with impunity, and this letter of the Squire's, with its imperious demands upon the tired irritable bran, was the last straw. He sank down on the oriel seat, the letter dropping from his hands. Outside, the little garden, now a mass of red and pink roses, the hill and the distant stretches of park were wrapped in a thick, sultry mist, through which a dim, far-off sunlight struggled on to the library floor, and lay in ghostly patches on the polished boards and lower ranges of books. The simplest religious thoughts began to flow over him--the simplest, childish words of prayer were on his lips. He felt himself delivered, he knew not how or why. He rose deliberately, laid the Squire's letter among his other papers, and tied them up carefully; then he took up the books which lay piled on the Squire's writing-table: all those volumes of German, French, and English criticism, liberal or apologetic, which he had been accumulating round him day, by day with a feverish toilsome impartiality, and began rapidly and methodically to put them back in their places on the shelves. 'I have done too much thinking, too much reading,' he was saying to himself as he went through his task. 'Now let it be the turn of something else!' And still as he handled the books, it w
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