se that's--that's the end,' he said, as if he would make an
effort to joke upon it, though his voice all but failed in speaking the
few words.
He walked a little apart, then approached her again.
'You don't say this just to put me off?' he asked, with a roughness
which was rather the effect of his attempt to keep down emotion than
intentional.
'I have told you the truth,' Emily replied firmly.
'Do other people know it? Do the Cartwrights?'
'You are the only one to whom I have spoken of it.'
'Except your father and mother, you mean?'
'They do not know.'
Though so troubled, she was yet able to ask herself whether his delicacy
was sufficiently developed to enjoin silence. The man had made such
strange revelation of himself, she felt unable to predict his course. No
refinement in him would now have surprised her; but neither would any
outbreak of boorishness. He seemed capable of both. His next question
augured ill.
'Of course it is not any one in Dunfield?'
'It is not.'
Jealousy was torturing him. He was quite conscious that he should have
refrained from a single question, yet he could no more keep these back
than he could the utterance of his passion.
'Will you--'
He hesitated.
'May I leave you, Mr. Dagworthy?' Emily asked, seeing that he was not
likely to quit her. She moved to take the books from the chair.
'One minute more.--Will you tell me who it is?--I am a brute to ask you,
but--if you--Good God! How shall I bear this?'
He turned his back upon her; she saw him quiver. It was her impulse to
walk from the garden, but she feared to pass him.
He faced her again. Yes, the man could suffer.
'Will you tell me who it is?' he groaned rather than spoke. 'You don't
believe that I should speak of it? But I feel I could bear it better; I
should know for certain it was no use hoping.'
Emily could not answer.
'It is some one in London?'
'Yes, Mr. Dagworthy, I cannot tell you more than that. Please do not ask
more.'
'I won't. Of course your opinion of me is worse than ever. That doesn't
matter much.--If you could kill as easily as you can drive a man mad, I
would ask you to still have pity on me.--I'm forgetting: you want me to
go first, so that you can lock up the garden.--Good-bye!'
He did not offer his hand, but cast one look at her, a look Emily never
forgot, and walked quickly away.
Emily could not start at once homewards. When it was certain that
Dagworthy had left the
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