FREE BOOKS

Author's List




PREV.   NEXT  
|<   147   148   149   150   151   152   153   154   155   156   157   158   159   160   161   162   163   164   165   166   167   168   169   170   171  
172   173   174   175   176   177   178   179   180   181   182   183   184   185   186   187   188   189   190   191   192   193   194   195   196   >>   >|  
e life of its parents, but the life of the whole creation was present in the cell it started from. Think how our body comes charged with spiritual energies, indestructible instincts, infinite memories that are not ours; that its life, from minute to minute, goes on by a process of combustion, the explosion of untamable forces, and that we--_we_--unmake the work of millions of aeons in a moment, that we charge it with _our_ will, _our_ instincts, _our_ memories, so that there's not an atom of our flesh unpenetrated by spirit, not a cell of our bodies that doesn't hold some spiritual germ of us--so that we multiply our souls in our bodies; and their dust, when they scatter, is the seed of _our_ universe, flung heaven knows where." For a moment the clever imp looked out of Laura's eyes. "Do you know," she said, "it makes me feel as if I had millions and millions of intoxicated brains, all trying to grasp something, and all reeling, and I can't tell whether it's you who are intoxicated, or I. And I want to know how you know about it." A change passed over his face. It became suddenly still and incommunicable. "And the only thing I want to know," she wailed, "you won't tell me, and it's all very dim and disagreeable and sad." "What won't I tell you?" "What's become of the things that made Papa so adorable?" "I've been trying to tell you. I've been trying to make you see." "I can only see that they've gone." "And I can only see that they exist more exquisitely, more intensely than ever. Too intensely for your senses, or his, to be aware of them." "Ah----" "And I should say the same of a still-born baby that I had never seen alive, or of a lunatic whom I had not once seen sane." "How do you know?" she reiterated. "I can't tell you." "You can't tell me anything, and your very face shuts up when I look at it." "I can't tell you anything," he said gently. "I can only talk to you like an intoxicated medical student, and it's time for me to go." She did not seem to have heard him, and they sat silent. It was as if their silence was a borderland; as if they were both pausing there before they plunged; behind them the unspoken, the unspeakable; before them the edge of perilous speech. "I'm glad I've seen you," she said at last. He ignored the valediction of her tone. "And when am I to see you again?" he said. This time she did not answer, and he had a profound sense of the pause. He ask
PREV.   NEXT  
|<   147   148   149   150   151   152   153   154   155   156   157   158   159   160   161   162   163   164   165   166   167   168   169   170   171  
172   173   174   175   176   177   178   179   180   181   182   183   184   185   186   187   188   189   190   191   192   193   194   195   196   >>   >|  



Top keywords:

intoxicated

 

millions

 
bodies
 
intensely
 

memories

 
instincts
 

spiritual

 
moment
 

minute

 

valediction


borderland
 

senses

 

exquisitely

 

profound

 

silence

 

answer

 

plunged

 

reiterated

 

medical

 

student


pausing
 

gently

 
lunatic
 

silent

 

speech

 
unspeakable
 

unspoken

 

perilous

 

unpenetrated

 

charge


forces

 

unmake

 

spirit

 

scatter

 

multiply

 
untamable
 

explosion

 

present

 

started

 

creation


parents

 

charged

 

process

 

combustion

 

energies

 
indestructible
 
infinite
 

suddenly

 
incommunicable
 

passed