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h his own initials on. So from week to week he put off becoming an artist and one year (after a four-month love affair and two lacquer cabinets) he made a lecture tour in America. "Was it a success?" I asked wearily (Delancey's success is always such a terribly foregone conclusion). "Tremendous," he beamed. "I was careful to be a little dull because then they think they're learning something." But he was out of love, the flat was overcrowded, money continued to pour in and he knew terribly well that he was not making a contribution to contemporary literature. He had always assured me at intervals that some day he would write his "real book" but I think it was after his tour in America that the dream became a project. He burst in to tell me about it. Delancey always begins things with a sudden noisy rush. "Charlotte," he said, "I have made up my mind." "It sounds very momentous," I teased. He decided years ago that I was grave, fastidious, whimsical, aloof and (I suspect) a little faded. I have long given up fighting my own battle (to be known) because I realise that Delancey never revises the passports given to old ideas. There is always, to him, something a little bit sacred about the accepted. "I can't go on with it any longer," he explained. "Go on with what?" "My damned stories." "How ungrateful you are," I murmured, thinking of the lacquer cabinets, "you have a market, you can command a price. Each of your love affairs is more magnificently studded with flowers than the last----" "Be quiet," he said. "I came to you because I knew that you would understand." "You are trying to blackmail me." "Do be serious," he pleaded. "I am going to give all that up. I have determined to settle down and dedicate myself entirely to my book." "But," I expostulated, "have you thought of the yearning _Saturday Evening Post_, of the deserted _Strand_?" "I have thought of everything," he said, "I shall be sacrificing 5,000 pounds a year, but what is 5,000 pounds a year?" I thought of the taffetas curtains and the cigars, but I answered quite truthfully. "I don't know." "You see, Charlotte," he dropped the noble for the confidential, "I have got things to say, things that are vital to me. I couldn't put them in my other work. How could I? It would have seemed--you will think me ridiculous--a kind of prostitution." "Yes," I said. "But they were clamouring for expression all the time. And I have
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