trusted at this instant. As a mark of my submission to your
will, you shall, if you please, withdraw--but I will not go to M. Hall--
live or die my Lord M. I will not go to M. Hall--but will attend the
effect of your promise. Remember, Madam, you have promised to endeavour
to make yourself easy till you see the event of next Thursday--next
Thursday, remember, your uncle comes up, to see us married--that's the
event.--You think ill of your Lovelace--do not, Madam, suffer your own
morals to be degraded by the infection, as you called it, of his example.

Away flew the charmer with this half permission--and no doubt thought that
she had an escape--nor without reason.

I knew not for half an hour what to do with myself. Vexed at the heart,
nevertheless, (now she was from me, and when I reflected upon her hatred
of me, and her defiances,) that I suffered myself to be so overawed,
checked, restrained----

And now I have written thus far, (have of course recollected the whole of
our conversation,) I am more and more incensed against myself.

But I will go down to these women--and perhaps suffer myself to be
laughed at by them.

Devil fetch them, they pretend to know their own sex. Sally was a woman
well educated--Polly also--both have read--both have sense--of parentage
not mean--once modest both--still, they say, had been modest, but for me
--not entirely indelicate now; though too little nice for my personal
intimacy, loth as they both are to have me think so--the old one, too, a
woman of family, though thus (from bad inclination as well as at first
from low circumstances) miserably sunk:--and hence they all pretend to
remember what once they were; and vouch for the inclinations and
hypocrisy of the whole sex, and wish for nothing so ardently, as that I
will leave the perverse lady to their management while I am gone to
Berkshire; undertaking absolutely for her humility and passiveness on my
return; and continually boasting of the many perverse creatures whom they
have obliged to draw in their traces.

***

I am just come from the sorceresses.

I was forced to take the mother down; for she began with her Hoh, Sir!
with me; and to catechize and upbraid me, with as much insolence as if I
owed her money.

I made her fly the pit at last. Strange wishes wished we against each
other at her quitting it----What were they?--I'll tell thee----She wished
me married, and to be jealous of my wife; and my heir-apparen