radiant amid the splendors of her equipage. The
coquette bowed very graciously to us both, and the smile she gave me
seemed to me to be divine and full of love. I was very happy; I fancied
myself beloved; I had money, a wealth of love in my heart, and my
troubles were over. I was light-hearted, blithe, and content. I found
my friend's lady-love charming. Earth and air and heaven--all
nature--seemed to reflect Foedora's smile for me.
"As we returned through the Champs-Elysees, we paid a visit
to Rastignac's hatter and tailor. Thanks to the 'Necklace,' my
insignificant peace-footing was to end, and I made formidable
preparations for a campaign. Henceforward I need not shrink from a
contest with the spruce and fashionable young men who made Foedora's
circle. I went home, locked myself in, and stood by my dormer window,
outwardly calm enough, but in reality I bade a last good-bye to the
roofs without. I began to live in the future, rehearsed my life drama,
and discounted love and its happiness. Ah, how stormy life can grow
to be within the four walls of a garret! The soul within us is like a
fairy; she turns straw into diamonds for us; and for us, at a touch of
her wand, enchanted palaces arise, as flowers in the meadows spring up
towards the sun.
"Towards noon, next day, Pauline knocked gently at my door, and brought
me--who could guess it?--a note from Foedora. The countess asked me to
take her to the Luxembourg, and to go thence to see with her the Museum
and Jardin des Plantes.
"'The man is waiting for an answer,' said Pauline, after quietly waiting
for a moment.
"I hastily scrawled my acknowledgements, and Pauline took the note. I
changed my dress. When my toilette was ended, and I looked at myself
with some complaisance, an icy shiver ran through me as I thought:
"'Will Foedora walk or drive? Will it rain or shine?--No matter,
though,' I said to myself; 'whichever it is, can one ever reckon with
feminine caprice? She will have no money about her, and will want
to give a dozen francs to some little Savoyard because his rags are
picturesque.'
"I had not a brass farthing, and should have no money till the evening
came. How dearly a poet pays for the intellectual prowess that method
and toil have brought him, at such crises of our youth! Innumerable
painfully vivid thoughts pierced me like barbs. I looked out of my
window; the weather was very unsettled. If things fell out badly, I
might easily hire a cab fo
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