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ls to the true faith that lay behind them. That they knew lay behind them. She didn't know if he had read "The Light under the Altar"? "He's vicar of Wombash--in my diocese," said the bishop with restraint. "It's wonde'ful stuff," said Lady Sunderbund. "It's spi'tually cold, but it's intellectually wonde'ful. But we want that with spi'tuality. We want it so badly. If some one--" She became daring. She bit her under lip and flashed her spirit at him. "If you--" she said and paused. "Could think aloud," said the bishop. "Yes," she said, nodding rapidly, and became breathless to hear. It would certainly be an astonishing end to the Chasters difficulty if the bishop went over to the heretic, the bishop reflected. "My dear lady, I won't disguise," he began; "in fact I don't see how I could, that for some years I have been growing more and more discontented with some of our most fundamental formulae. But it's been very largely a shapeless discontent--hitherto. I don't think I've said a word to a single soul. No, not a word. You are the first person to whom I've ever made the admission that even my feelings are at times unorthodox." She lit up marvellously at his words. "Go on," she whispered. But she did not need to tell him to go on. Now that he had once broached the casket of his reserves he was only too glad of a listener. He talked as if they were intimate and loving friends, and so it seemed to both of them they were. It was a wonderful release from a long and painful solitude. To certain types it is never quite clear what has happened to them until they tell it. So that now the bishop, punctuated very prettily by Lady Sunderbund, began to measure for the first time the extent of his departure from the old innate convictions of Otteringham Rectory. He said that it was strange to find doubt coming so late in life, but perhaps it was only in recent years that his faith had been put to any really severe tests. It had been sheltered and unchallenged. "This fearful wa'," Lady Sunderbund interjected. But Princhester had been a critical and trying change, and "The Light under the Altar" case had ploughed him deeply. It was curious that his doubts always seemed to have a double strand; there was a moral objection based on the church's practical futility and an intellectual strand subordinated to this which traced that futility largely to its unconvincing formulae. "And yet you know," said the bisho
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