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to get through, via Warsaw and Alexandrovo, if you go at once." "Why do you ask me that?" I demanded, looking at him very straight. His blue eyes were more troubled than I had ever seen them. "Do you doubt me?" "No, before God I trust you as I trust none other in the world but Mishka and his father! But you are a stranger, a foreigner; why should you throw your life away for us?" "I have told you why, before. Because I only value my life so far as it may be of service to--her. If I left her and you, now, as you suggest, smuggled myself back into safety,--man, it's not to be thought of!" "Well, I will urge you no more," he said sadly. "But you are sacrificing yourself for a chivalrous delusion, my friend." "Where's the delusion? I know she does not love me; and I am quite content." Long after, I knew what he had wished to tell me then, and I can't even now decide what I'd have done if he had spoken, whether I would have gone or stayed; but I think I'd have stayed! When I had bathed and dressed in Vassilitzi's dressing-room,--he was still in bed and asleep in the adjoining one,--a servant took me to Anne's boudoir, a small bare room that yet had a cosey homelike look about it. She was alone, sitting in a low chair, her hands lying listlessly on the lap of her black gown. Her face was even whiter and more weary than it had looked in the morning, and she had been weeping, I saw, for her long lashes were still wet; but she summoned up a smile for me,--that brave smile, that was, in a way, sadder and more moving than tears. "You have heard that my mother is dead?" she asked, in a low voice. "She died in my arms half an hour after we got in; and I am so glad,--so glad. I have been thanking God in my heart ever since. She never knew me; she knew none of us, but Yossof; and that only because he had been near her in that dreadful place. You saw her--just for a moment; you saw something of what those long years had made of her,--and we--my God, we had thought her dead all that time!" She shuddered, and sat staring with stern, sombre eyes at the fire, her slender fingers convulsively interlaced. She was silent for a space, and so was I, for I could find never a word to say. Suddenly she looked straight at me. "Maurice Wynn, if ever the time comes when you might blame me, condemn me,--justifiably enough,--think of my mother's history. Remember that I was brought up with one fixed purpose in life,--to ave
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