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and then in her place the girl's eyes lifted, found him gazing at her--and each time looked away. For some reason she could not return that look. For some reason as each time she caught it, read its meaning, her brown face grew darker. As truly as out there on the prairie she was afraid of the infinite solitude, she was afraid now of the worship that gaze implied. She had awakened, had Elizabeth Landor; and in the depths of her own soul she knew she was not worthy of such love, such confidence absolute. She expected it, she wanted it--and still she did not want it. She longed for oblivion such as his, oblivion of all save the passing minute; and it was not hers. Prescience, without a reason therefor which she would admit, prevented forgetfulness. She tried to shake the impression off; but it clung tenaciously. Instinctively, almost under compulsion, she even went ahead to meet it, to prepare the way. "You mustn't look at me that way, How," she laughed at last forcedly. "It makes me afraid of myself--afraid of dropping. Supposing I should fall, from up in the sky where you fancy I am! No one, not even you, could ever put the pieces together." "Fall," smiled the man, "you fall? You wouldn't; but if you did, I'd be there to catch you." "Then you, too, would be in fragments. I'm very, very far above earth, you know." "I'd want to be so, if you fell," said the man. "You're all there is in the world, all there is in life, for me. I'd want to be annihilated, too, then." The girl's hands folded in her lap; as they had done that afternoon, very carefully. "You don't know me even yet, How," she guided on. "You think I'm perfect, but I'm not. I know I'm very, very human, very--bad at times." The other smiled; that was all. "I'm liable to do anything, be anything. I'm liable to even fancy I don't like you and run away." "If you did you'd return very soon." "Return?" She looked at him fully. "You think so?" "I know so." "Why, How?" "Because you care for me." "But it would be because I didn't care for you that I'd go, you know." "You'd find your mistake and come back." The clasped hand locked, as once before they had done. "And when I did--come back--you'd forgive me, How?" "There'd be nothing to forgive." "It wouldn't be wrong--to leave you that way?" "To me you could do no wrong, Bess." "Not if I did anything, if I--ran away with another man?" The listener smiled, until the beardl
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