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t to bear the stress of his own emptiness. When he saw Birkin his face lit up in a sudden, wonderful smile. 'By God, Rupert,' he said, 'I'd just come to the conclusion that nothing in the world mattered except somebody to take the edge off one's being alone: the right somebody.' The smile in his eyes was very astonishing, as he looked at the other man. It was the pure gleam of relief. His face was pallid and even haggard. 'The right woman, I suppose you mean,' said Birkin spitefully. 'Of course, for choice. Failing that, an amusing man.' He laughed as he said it. Birkin sat down near the fire. 'What were you doing?' he asked. 'I? Nothing. I'm in a bad way just now, everything's on edge, and I can neither work nor play. I don't know whether it's a sign of old age, I'm sure.' 'You mean you are bored?' 'Bored, I don't know. I can't apply myself. And I feel the devil is either very present inside me, or dead.' Birkin glanced up and looked in his eyes. 'You should try hitting something,' he said. Gerald smiled. 'Perhaps,' he said. 'So long as it was something worth hitting.' 'Quite!' said Birkin, in his soft voice. There was a long pause during which each could feel the presence of the other. 'One has to wait,' said Birkin. 'Ah God! Waiting! What are we waiting for?' 'Some old Johnny says there are three cures for ENNUI, sleep, drink, and travel,' said Birkin. 'All cold eggs,' said Gerald. 'In sleep, you dream, in drink you curse, and in travel you yell at a porter. No, work and love are the two. When you're not at work you should be in love.' 'Be it then,' said Birkin. 'Give me the object,' said Gerald. 'The possibilities of love exhaust themselves.' 'Do they? And then what?' 'Then you die,' said Gerald. 'So you ought,' said Birkin. 'I don't see it,' replied Gerald. He took his hands out of his trousers pockets, and reached for a cigarette. He was tense and nervous. He lit the cigarette over a lamp, reaching forward and drawing steadily. He was dressed for dinner, as usual in the evening, although he was alone. 'There's a third one even to your two,' said Birkin. 'Work, love, and fighting. You forget the fight.' 'I suppose I do,' said Gerald. 'Did you ever do any boxing--?' 'No, I don't think I did,' said Birkin. 'Ay--' Gerald lifted his head and blew the smoke slowly into the air. 'Why?' said Birkin. 'Nothing. I thought we might have a round. It is per
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