en me.
There was one priest for whom I suffered much, through his not being
willing to die to himself, and loving himself too much. With a sad
regret I saw him decaying, falling away. As for the others there are
some of them who have continued stedfast and immovable, and some whom
the tempest has shaken a little, but not torn away. Though these start
aside, yet they still return. But those who are snatched quite away
return no more.

There was one true daughter given me, whom our Lord made use of to gain
many others to Him. She was in a strange state of death when I first
saw her, and by me He gave her life and peace. She afterward, fell
extremely ill. The doctors said she would die; but I had an assurance
of the contrary, and that God would make use of her to gain souls, as
he has done. There was in a monastery a young woman confined in a state
of distraction. I saw her, knew her case, and that it was not what they
thought it was. As soon as I had spoken to her she recovered. But the
prioress did not like that I should tell her my thoughts of it, because
the person who had brought her thither was her friend. They plagued her
more than before, and threw her back again into her distraction.

A sister of another monastery had been for eight years in a deep
melancholy unrelieved by anyone. Her director increased it, by
practicing remedies contrary to her disorder. I had never been in that
monastery; for I did not go into such places, unless I was sent for, as
I did not think it right to intrude, but left myself to be conducted of
Providence. I was very much surprised that at eight o'clock at night
one came for me from the prioress. It was in the long days of summer,
and being near, I went. I met with a sister who told me her case. She
had gone to such excess, that seeing no remedy for it, she had taken a
knife to kill herself. The knife fell out of her hand and a person
coming to see her had advised her to speak to me. Our Lord made me know
at first what the matter was; and that He required her to resign
herself to Him, instead of resisting Him as they had made her do for
eight years. I was instrumental to draw her into such a resignation,
that she entered at once into a peace of paradise; all her pains and
troubles were instantly banished; and never returned again. She has the
greatest capacity of any in the house. She was presently so changed as
to be the admiration of the whole community. Our Lord gave her a very
grea