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stinians." "Is this a saint's day?" "No; but my mother makes me go every day." "I will come with you." "Yes do, give me your arm; we will go into the cloisters and talk there." Mdlle. X. C. V. was accompanied by her maid, but she knew better than to be in the way, so we left her in the cloisters. As soon as we were alone she said to me, "Have you read my letter?" "Yes, of course; here it is, burn it yourself." "No, keep it, and do so with your own hands." "I see you trust in me, and I assure you I will not abuse your trust." "I am sure you will not. I am four months with child; I can doubt it no longer, and the thought maddens me!" "Comfort yourself, we will find some way to get over it." "Yes; I leave all to you. You must procure an abortion." "Never, dearest! that is a crime!" "Alas! I know that well; but it is not a greater crime than suicide, and there lies my choice: either to destroy the wretched witness of my shame, or to poison myself. For the latter alternative I have everything ready. You are my only friend, and it is for you to decide which it shall be. Speak to me! Are you angry that I have not gone to the Chevalier Farsetti before you?" She saw my astonishment, and stopped short, and tried to wipe away the tears which escaped from her eyes. My heart bled for her. "Laying the question of crime on one side," said I, "abortion is out of our power. If the means employed are not violent they are uncertain, and if they are violent they are dangerous to the mother. I will never risk becoming your executioner; but reckon on me, I will not forsake you. Your honour is as dear to me as your life. Becalm, and henceforth think that the peril is mine, not yours. Make up your mind that I shall find some way of escape, and that there will be no need to cut short that life, to preserve which I would gladly die. And allow me to say that when I read your note I felt glad, I could not help it, that at such an emergency you chose me before all others to be your helper. You will find that your trust was not given in vain, for no one loves you as well as I, and no one is so fain to help you. Later you shall begin to take the remedies I will get for you, but I warn you to be on your guard, for this is a serious matter--one of life and death. Possibly you have already told somebody about it--your maid or one of your sisters?" "I have not told anybody but you, not even the author of my shame. I
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