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have their promise to form a committee for the children of Austria." "Well, that's that. We'll marry two months from today. I can finish my play in that time, and I won't wait a day longer." "Very well. . . . I met Marian Lawrence the other day. I'm told you were expected to marry her at one time. She is very beautiful and has more subtlety than most American women. Why didn't you?" "Because she wasn't you, I suppose. Did she stick a little bejewelled gold pin into you?" "Only with her eyes. She made me feel quite the age I had left behind me in Vienna." And then she asked irresistibly, "Do you think you would have fallen in love with me, after a much longer and better opportunity to know me, if you--if we had met in Vienna before that time?" "No, I should not. What a question! I should have loved you in one way as I do now--with that part of me that worships you. But men are men, and never will be demi-gods." This time she did laugh, and until tears were in her eyes. "Oh, Lee! No wonder I fell in love with you. Any other man--well, I couldn't have loved you. My soul was too old." And then her eyes widened as she stared before her. "Perhaps----" He sprang to his feet and pulled her up from her chair. "None of that. None of that. And now I do want to kiss you." And as Mary Zattiany never did anything by halves she was completely happy, and completely young. XXXVI He left her at ten o'clock, and the next morning rose at seven and went to work at once on his play. He chose the one that had the greatest emotional possibilities. Gora Dwight had told him that he must learn to "externalize his emotions," and he felt that here was the supreme opportunity. Never would he have more turgid, pent-up, tearing emotions to get rid of than now. He wrote until one o'clock, then, after lunch and two hours on his column, went out and took a long walk; but lighter of heart than since he had met Mary Zattiany. He also reflected with no little satisfaction that when writing on the play he had barely thought of her. All the fire in him had flown to his head and transported him to another plane; he wondered if any woman, save in brief moments, could rival the ecstasy of mental creation. That rotten spot in the brain, dislocation of particles, whatever it was that enabled a few men to do what the countless millions never dreamed of attempting, or attempt only to fail, was, through its very
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